Will B. - Journal Day 3
Posted: Thu Sep 09, 2010 6:35 am
Wow! Stepping stone number three really hit me where I live.
I am questioning God about why he would keep my wife in a job with her "crush" thereby making us both miserable and why God would allow my marriage to fail, if that is what will happen. But, deep inside, I have to remember that God's Ways are a mystery and that IF I trust and believe, my marriage won't fail but come out stronger OR it will fail because it is his will to allow it for his reasons.
I have to accept whatever happens. I have accept his grace to get through it and rest in him. This is VERY hard for me to do.
Thanks for all the kind words. I am taking them to heart. I was able to get through last evening without pushing my wife or making comments that she would consider "selfish" on my part.
She has a decision to make today: Does she just leave the job now or go back and work her final two days based on a two-week's notice she handed in previously, or allow herself to be talked into staying by her manager. We went through the pros and cons of each decision and I didn't push for her never to go back even when she seemed to be leaning that way. Thanks be to God that I didn't so anything to "irritate" or push her away last evening.
-W-
I am questioning God about why he would keep my wife in a job with her "crush" thereby making us both miserable and why God would allow my marriage to fail, if that is what will happen. But, deep inside, I have to remember that God's Ways are a mystery and that IF I trust and believe, my marriage won't fail but come out stronger OR it will fail because it is his will to allow it for his reasons.
I have to accept whatever happens. I have accept his grace to get through it and rest in him. This is VERY hard for me to do.
Thanks for all the kind words. I am taking them to heart. I was able to get through last evening without pushing my wife or making comments that she would consider "selfish" on my part.
She has a decision to make today: Does she just leave the job now or go back and work her final two days based on a two-week's notice she handed in previously, or allow herself to be talked into staying by her manager. We went through the pros and cons of each decision and I didn't push for her never to go back even when she seemed to be leaning that way. Thanks be to God that I didn't so anything to "irritate" or push her away last evening.
-W-