heart's secret
Posted: Tue Dec 08, 2009 9:35 pm
Hi, this is something totally new to me - expressing my thoughts where other people can see them. i swore that i would never let anyone know about my secret struggles. i am terrified of people finding out - especially my family. it would break their heart. even now, i am still ashamed to even mention them. i have been struggling with binge eating and sexual fantasies/masturbation for about 6 six years now. the many times that i have said i would stop and thought i had the will power to, that many times i have failed. today i failed yet again. i am tired of the battle being lost. i always refused telling and accountability because i am so ashamed. thought i could do it on my own. but i can't - obviously. even now i am somewhat reluctant if this will help. i want to break free. not just for a couple of days, but for life.