im having trouble there are so many things going on in my life and i feel so alone and depressed and confused and hurting and i have no idea what to do or how to over come any of the things that is going on.
i just want to give up sometimes jus lay down and go to sleep and not have to feel the pain or think or deal with life and sleep and not dream and not have to wake up just be happy for once.
i want to move out of my parents house its not a good place to be and i am not loved or welcome and my faith is not welcome im not even allowed to go to church. but its tough i don't drive i am out of a job don't have any money so to move i would have to rely on my b/f and i'm not sure how that will work out..
im a christian now since 2005 and God has helped me over come so many obstacles and since so far and for that im humble and grateful but now jus not sure if i can be tough enough to keep going for him there are still things i cant let go of like things from the past and sins that i am trying to overcome with no luck so far
everything is tough and i feel alone even wen im with family im an outcast they don't no much of me or my past or my feelings or thoughts ..ect i'm not loved and are always dumped on i have hardly no friends other than online and that is real tough for me now cuz i feel really alone and jus want to be loved and have someone to talk to..
what i want out of my life is to be humble to be happy i've never really ever ben happy ever since i was born. i've been through so much and its hard to let go of things on my own , i would like to be with my ba/f have a job and someday get married even have a family if that is in my future
and do good things for God
i don't want to be rich or famous or have all the worldy possesions i've been living withought and don't feel the need to have unnecessary things and i feel bad wen i have things that others don't and it breaks my heart to see all the ppl that have even less than the little i have some say being sensitive is a good things but its tough for me sometimes and i just wish i could stop crying so much at least
i ramble on and proly don't make no sense at all .. but that how i feel
everyone has a breaking point i no i've been there 3 times in my life already i don't want to go back
GodsAngelBaby