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[harmonizer]

Well, I let it all out today. I had some time to myself. Nobody was home and it was just me and the Lord. You know, I've never been in a situation like this all my life. Like the word says..."as if some strange thing happen to you...." When I look back, I see that I may have made some choices, but I really see that I didn't bring this on myself. It's trully a stange thing!

Well, as I said, I let it all out. I prayed and prayed in the spirit. I'm not sure how most christians feel about praying in tongues, by I do and did. I realize that I didn't pray in tongues a lot because I was afraid. I truly was afraid because it's so contraversial for a lot of people. When I first received this gift, I trully felt God and that I was really connected to him. But just like the devil, I was attacked BIG time and, to be honest, that was a very scary time in my life. I trully had an experience that (I'm ashamed to say) could have ended my life and my sanity. God brought me through that time, though (I was young and in college) God had mercy on me because I trully asked for that gift with all my heart because I really wanted God in my life. I recieved that gift as a little child, not knowing what would happen, but trusting that IT IS REAL! A OF GOD. It was amazing how quicky the devil tried to destroy me and everyone around me, LITERALLY! From that time (about 14 years ago) I was very hesitant about this gift. I was scared to speak out, feel, worship, and try to connect with God in my spirit. Now, I'm naturally a thinker. I have the mind of a composer,( by the way I do arrange and compose music) So naturally, I try to put things together, FIGURE THINGS OUT, and do a lot of things in my head. So I have to be very careful not to get myself lost in my own thinking.

But any way, I spoke out today, because I have to regain the TRUST in God again. Yes, I was happy and trusting Him when things were going ok. But for the first time in my life, I'm totally clueless as to what God is up to. I'm tired of trying to figure Him out in my MIND, because right now, there are lots of things that shouldn't be there. The main "weeds" are DOUBT and TRUST. So in speaking out in my prayer language, as it has been called, I told God that I'm done with doubting and not trusting Him. I was attacked by the devil at a time when I wanted Gods gift in my life. I wanted to be close to Him and He with me. With child like trust, I asked and received. So today, in my "secret closet", I spoke and prayed. I know that I didn't understand all that I said and prayed (although I know I said Yesi) my spirit man knows what I am in need of. For those of you who either are a little hesitant about this, or may not have received, or asked, or may not believe in this gift at all, all I can say to you is this, There will come a time when God will require you to be real with Him and forsake every negative thing that you may have heard or falsely imagined about the Holy Spirit and the gift of tongues, because it is not a gift from the MIND but the SPIRIT. My Spirit Man prayed for me. The Holy Spirit will Comfort you and GUIDE you. He guided my prayers...I just have to open my mouth and let HIM pray to God for me.

Now some may think that just because I speak in tongues, that all of my problem will go away. Well, all I can say is that when HARMONIZER (or my real name), doesn't know what to do anymore or even know what to pray for, I just have to believe that I told GOD all about it...not by my own might or knowledge, but in SPIRIT AND TRUTH AND HE'LL DO THE REST . I can't be afraid any more, scared, or worry that I doing something WRONG, or saying something WRONG, or I'm "demon possesed", or God doesn't hear me, or I'm speaking blasphamey (This is what the devil lied to me about 14 years ago)

I just can't be afraid any more or afraid of the things (LIES) that I've heard about this gift. (Such as, "if you do that you're demon possessed, or "You're speaking mystries and you can't let the devil hear you because he will steal your prayers and your knowledge...or try this one, "You shouldn't do that because it's not for TODAY, that gift isn't for TODAY) Well, guest what, I NEED GOD TODAY, TOMMOROW, AND ALWAYS!

Now with all that said, I just have to live life best as I can and know that God as my father, friend and HE loves me and HEARS me, and He's going to take care of me, He's going to walk with me, talk with me, never leave me, only tell me the truth, help me with what ever I need, protect me, keep my MIND safe, and do all the things that I CAN'T DO on my own. Thank you, once again for all of you who read and reply. Your words and encouragement is greatly appreciated.

[xxJILLxx]

Hi harmonizer!

I just wanted to encourage you and let you know that we are not here to please man and what man thinks is right. But we are here for GOd and to listen to His voice.

Speaking in tongues is a beautiful love language between you and our Father. Nobody can take that away from us. Satan will try to discourage us and tell us lies that we are doing something wrong. But i do somewhat know how u feel being that i was pretty much raised in a cessational church and they didnt believe that God could still heal etc etc...

Well friend God proved them wrong and i know that i know that i know that God says in His scripture

Matthew 10:8
Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.

that is TRUTH!

So dont worry so much what other people think about what you do in your private time with God, that is between you and God and nobody can take that away from you. We are here to please God not man.

I pray that GOd will send you encouragers and that He will give you peace that surpasses all understanding in Christ Jesus.
In Jesus name Amen

Gb
♥Jill

[Mackenaw]

Hello Harmonizer

God bless you this day.

Harmonizer, I'm praising our Lord for His grace and mercy and for the renewal of Holy Spirit power that The Lord has poured upon you. Soak it all in.

Thank You Lord.

God bless and keep you, Harmonizer.
Love,
Mack

[Dora]

Aww harmonizer I know what you mean about this gift.
Use it in your closet to lift you up.
Use it when you're down.
use it when things around you are falling apart.
Just you and God.

Stay close to Him bro!
God loves ya and so do I.

[deetu]

He is back to trusting the Lord

[Tam]

sorry deetu but gotta shout here
::ohyeah He is back to trusting again ::ohyeah

[mlg]

Hi Harmonizer,

Looks like you've made it to step 12. Yipppeee!!! Just a couple more steps on this journey to go...but the path doesn't end there...it continues, and I can't wait to see where He leads you.

I noticed as I read your post that you shared that you are now going to Trust God again...Thank You Lord!!

Psalms 107:29
He maketh the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still.

God is bringing you in to calmer waters...and it's a blessing to see.

Prayers for you.

luv ya