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[sweetlittleangel]

dear Holy Spirit..i want to get started with this study today..i want to have a personel relationship and be my true friend..first of all, im sorry for theres many times i ve ignored You in the passed.. Speaking about friend, there s something i need to tell to the Holy Spirit..when i was in primary school frm age 7yrs old to 12yrs old..i was being mistreated by my classmates..since i was a top student in my class, one of my classmate got jelous and she manipulated the whole class to discriminate me..they didnt want to be friend with me..i was so sad and deeply hurted..this memory keep resurfaced when i met them at my village during the holiday..at that young age too, my mom, my older brother and me being mistreated by her mother in law or our grandma and my aunts. I remembered when my grandma didnt want to touch us or even to look at us. My mum has been very patient towards them and keep treating them well, eventho i knew my mum has suffered a lot. As we grown up, they slowly changes and the began to treat us in proper way. This led me to a confusion weather they really meant it or not. Once in a while, when something trigger this memory..i felt angered inside my heart. I really need help from the Holy spirit to deal with this pain. In uni, again i was mistreated again by a friend. At first, there five of us being friend and later one by one left her, after they went through some conflict. They was amazed with me that i was being very patient to keep stand with her. Apparently, all other friends that she encounter, end up with a conflict with her. At the end i couldnt stand it anymore and i left. My study has been affected a lot and my grade going down. There s few paper i have to refer. I was kinda phobia just to listen to her name after that. It was so painful when she didnt treat me with a respect. I thought i forgot about these memory but once in a while it keep coming back. I want the Holy Spirit to help me along my journey here. As i want to be free from any bondage that holding me back to get out and grab His hand..

[mlg]

Awww sla, I find it so neat that you are reaching for the Holy Spirit to help you with all the pain you have been through in the past. I want you to know Holy Spirit is ready and willing also. He wants to be your comforter and your friend. This journey is going to take you to a new understanding of the Holy Spirit and what He can truly do for you.

luv ya so much sis

[comfy]

Hi, Sweet Little Angel (o: So you are in Malaysia > I'm glad to meet you and that we can share, here. Thank You, God, and bless her, please, in the name of Jesus (o:

Oh, that is such a hard thing, to have a grandma who didn't want to touch you. But it is good to get with the Holy Spirit who has us love people like that. And the Holy Spirit wants to touch you, doesn't He
. . . . . . . . . . . . . .
"Now hope does not disappoint,
because the love of God has been
poured out in our hearts
by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

(Romans 5:5)

So, the Holy Spirit wants to feel us, all through us with His love (o:
And no human can love us like this (o:

[sweetlittleangel]

Thank you mlg for ur kind words. Thank you comfy for ur words of encouragement. Im glad to meet u too. Yes, i have talked with the Holy Spirit last week. I talked about my goals, my future, my hope, my failures, my pain, and stil a lot of thing i want to tell Him. I listen to christian songs whenever i can. I asked God to bless my life so that i can be a blessing to other people around me. I asked forgiveness from Him for all the wrong choices, wrong decision and wrong actions in my life. Sometimes i tend to blame myself for not able to accomplished certain task or when i failed to achieve the thing i should have. I want the Holy Spirit to help me to start with a new, clean slate. I asked Him to help me to build a strong foundation in me so that i cannot be moved in the middle of my tough times. Theres something i learned, to put all my cares in Him and to trust Him totally. I want the Holy Spirit to walk with me and guiding me in every step i take, so that i wont go to the wrong direction.
Hey mlg, i went for my appoinment with the orthopedic last friday. It was tiring as it took me from 8.30am and finished at 3pm. First, i went to see the specialist. I told them about the history of my last surgery which was 10yrs ago. They checked up my spine and examined the sensation in my legs and hands. Then, i told them about the lower back pain, upper back pain and left abdomen pain i always had. Then i went for x ray. At first i was being x ray at the normal xray room. But then they asked to go to the ANE since there they have a longer film. I had to wait for 1 hour for my turned cuz that was an emergency department. About 4-5 times they x ray my spine as the doctor want to see how long was the rod being implanted in my spine. At first, they couldnt managed to x ray starting from thoraco spine (upper neck) to my cervical spine (lower spine), they couldnt see the cervical spine. Then they had to divide the x ray to two parts of film so tht the doctor would just combined them to see the rod been implanted up to which part of the cervical spine. I finished with the x ray at 11.30 am..went back to the specialist room. Then, they compared the x ray with my last x ray which took just fter my surgery. They found that they were two disc of my cervical spine did not being implanted with the titanium rod. The doctor told me maybe that was the cause of my lower back pain. The two disc always move and lead to back pain. They explained to me what they can do about it. Their suggestion was that i undergo for faecet joint injection, meaning they will do injection in a specific part in my lower spine. After that, they will know what is the cause of the lower back pain, legs tiredness tht i had. Only then i can start with the right treatment. They explained to me that they maybe will do an operation in my lower back pain to prevent the two disc from moving. They told me that it gonna be a bit stiff or hard, but it help to reduce my lower back pain. Then they give me six weeks time to think and to make my decision. My next appoinment with the ortho is in May 8th 09. It is so happened that the date of my last surgery is May 7th 1999. Next month is the ten years of the surgery. If i agreed with their suggestion, only then they will admit me in the hospital for further examination and faecet joint injection. Im a bit worried about it and i couldnt believe that im going back to the hospital once again. I thank God that i had my relatives here accompanying me to meet the doctor since my parents are far away. Thanks God too the last appoinment went well. Oh ya, we had our lunch at 2pm and i went back at the counter to set a date for my next appoinment. Then went upstairs at level 2 to set appoinment for physiotherapy. My physiotpy will be start next week. mlg and comfy i really appreciate ur both replying. Thank you all other readers, i love you all. Mlg, im still at the first step of this study. When im ready i ll move on to second step.

[sweetlittleangel]

its now raining here..and im sitting looking my window..then i remembered something that the specialist said to another doctor during my last appoinment..when he compared my recent x ray film with the last x ray film..he said..there s not much changes in my spine after the surgerv..and he told that my lungs not functional well cuz of the rib cage squeezed it..honestly im quite frustrated when he said those..and i was discovered with a curvy spine when im im 11 Yrs old..done with my anterior and posterior surgery only after im 18yrs old....when they first discovered it, it was just a slightly curve..went to see a doctor when im 11 but he told us, nothing to worry..as i grew up the curve getting worsen and affected the function of my lungs..so when im 18, my aunt's husband who is a gynae specialist keen to meet with his friend who is an ortho specialist..then i underwent for my surgery..i was frustrated at first cause my spine didnt straightened out 100% as a result. But recently i thought what if i underwent for surgery after i was first discovered when im 11..i frustrated with my dad that he didnt continued to bring me to meet with an ortho fter that..few times i had that frustrated feeling..only now i could really poured it out to Holy Spirit..and He is continually comforting me..and its feel good after i let it out..thank you Holy Spirit..

[sweetlittleangel]

its now raining here..and im sitting looking my window..then i remembered something that the specialist said to another doctor during my last appoinment..when he compared my recent x ray film with the last x ray film..he said..there s not much changes in my spine after the surgerv..and he told that my lungs not functional well cuz of the rib cage squeezed it..honestly im quite frustrated when he said those..and i was discovered with a curvy spine when im im 11 Yrs old..done with my anterior and posterior surgery only after im 18yrs old....when they first discovered it, it was just a slightly curve..went to see a doctor when im 11 but he told us, nothing to worry..as i grew up the curve getting worsen and affected the function of my lungs..so when im 18, my aunt's husband who is a gynae specialist keen to meet with his friend who is an ortho specialist..then i underwent for my surgery..i was frustrated at first cause my spine didnt straightened out 100% as a result. But recently i thought what if i underwent for surgery after i was first discovered when im 11..i frustrated with my dad that he didnt continued to bring me to meet with an ortho fter that..few times i had that frustrated feeling..only now i could really poured it out to Holy Spirit..and He is continually comforting me..and its feel good after i let it out..thank you Holy Spirit..

[Mackenaw]

Hello Sweetlittleangel

You've been through a lot in your young years, lots of physical pain and discomfort, and I am so happy that you have our Lord to comfort you.

Yes, sometimes we can become frustrated thinking about if this or that had happened, maybe we could have been spared the pain. We don't always know why or the purpose for the pain and the trials, but we do know that our Lord will help us to overcome and find peace and joy.

Father God, Saviour Jesus Christ and The Holy Spirit love you so very much, Sweetlilttleangel. Let them comfort you always and rest in them.

You are such a lovely and sweet child of God. Your faith is inspirational to me.

God bless you, Sweetlittleangel.
Love,
Sister Mack

[sweetlittleangel]

sister Mackkk hug u back thank you for ur lovely reply. yaa..i surely dunno why i went through all those pains..but i do know those strengtened my faith in Him..yes sometimes its so hard to keep the faith, to keep trusting, to keep hoping, to keep moving and to keep waiting patiently..if it so hard for me, it certainly hard for Jesus when He was suffered..and to focus on Jesus, that makes me keep holding on..we are partakers of His sufferings, arent we? For me, that is the meaning of picking up our cross everyday..i pray that God will keep shining for me so that i can shine for Jesus.
Love u too sister Mack.

[mlg]

Sla my sister,

Sometimes the sufferings we endure may seem difficult, and hard to understand why God ask us to walk in these painful steps, but He has a plan to use our pain for His glory. I know you get frustrated, but that's because you want this to be better, but even if you are never healed 100%, remember that God is in control. As you said, the Holy Spirit is there to bring you comfort, and He will make you stronger.

luv ya sis

[sweetlittleangel]

Mlg sister thanks a lot for ur words. yaaa..the Holy Spirit reminded me the same thing..that all the pains i endured now are for His glory.. My best fren ve just talked with me on the phone just now..we had a long chat..im so happy for her when she told me about her plan to get married in jun..and i told her about my appoinment..fter sharing with her and listening to her opinion..she told me that in the last two years, she noticed the changes in me..she noticed that i get easily tired, i did a lot of sleeping and loss of apetite and my health slowly getting deteroit..her opinion was i need a medical attention..yes mlg i want to get better..and i think i will go for the faecet joint injection..
Luv you too mlg sister.

[mlg]

My prayers are with you sis, keep us informed as to how the injections work.

luv ya sis

[sweetlittleangel]

Today i move on to step 2 of if this study..it was very awesome especially about the consience. I so thank God for this study today..He begin to reveal something new to me..something about who He is..and who i am..i begin to build a relationship with the Holy Spirit in a way i never knew before..the attitude of frustration i had inside has changed..ive been crying for a way too long..its time to make this all out..its time to let it out of me..in my heart there s a rising song..song of victory..all of what You ve done for me..what can i say..You ve blown away..i praise You helplessly..i want the world to see Your glory..surrending to Him.. it just simply awesome. I asked the Holy Spirit to lit the fire in me to serve God with all my heart..and keep shining sooo brightly all for His glory..no matter what..