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[favored1]

Hi everyone. Here I am in step 2. What can I say; I have a garden that has exceeding abundantly overflowed with weeds. I'll be plucking them out all night, so if anyone wants to help, just come on over (LoL).

I normally do not like gardening, but this time, it felt pretty good to get rid of all of those weeds that I allowed in my life.

For the longest time, I felt that maybe something was wrong with me, that I stayed in a relationship that wasn't going anywhere. When I would pray, God would always tell me that my child's father was my husband. I know now what the problem is. My problem is that I didn't acknowledge God first. I never asked God what His plan was for me. My other issue is that I didn't trust God in every area of my life. So I wasn't able to totally surrender all to God. Boy, was that a thorn in my side when I heard God tell me that I didn't trust Him. I quickly asked God for forgiveness and I asked Him to do a quick work in me so that I would trust Him.

For the first time in my life, I've surrendered all to God and I haven't taken it back. I realize that I just don't have a clue how to handle certain situations. I heard a preacher say that God created a plan for you that always involves Him any other way will fail.

[vahn]

Hello favored1

Glad to see you on this Path that draws us all closer to our Lord .

If you are anything like me , the issue of trusting , or rather not trusting , anyone or "situation" , let alone God was not something I knew existed at all , I just simply didn't know , I had always done things on my own , never thought I needed anyone else's involvement in my plans , I could handle all my situations on my own , so on and so forth ... until , that is when the time came when I realized that a certain area in my life needed an outside "contribution" , without which , I didn't think it would be accomplished . Well after being humbled enough to ask for help , and I got a positive response , my hopes and expectations shot up sky-high and as a result I neglected "the plan B - just in case" safety net , and threw myself right at their mercy . Well ... I'm trusting you know what happened next right ? - Yep , after a little while , I found myself flat on my face , and naturally , vowing to never trust any other again .

We , favored1 , are humans , we trust each other on human terms and circumstances , we place a price tag on "trust" , just like we place ourselves on other's mercy for our fulfillment of our lacks , they , in turn are doing the same and exact in return , and whoever gets that "fulfillment" first , "Hah , we're done , I don't have to do this any more" type of thing .

I would not beat myself up (too much anyway) as far as not trusting God issue is concerned . See , it is NOT that we didn't trust God that is at issue here , we always trusted Him - obviously - but rather , it is the NOT GOING TO HIM FIRST , is what we feel "guilty" about , at least that was the case with me . After getting to that V8 moment , by the time I asked why-dint-I-think-a-dat ?? I was too embarrassed to go to Him , and next thing you know , The enemy finds a weak spot and fills our heads with all sorts of negative thoughts to stop us from going to Him , coz he knows what's coming .

My Lord is an All-Forgiving , All-Understanding , All-Knowing , All-Merciful , All-Gracious , All-Generous God , always on the ready to give me what I lack and then some no-matter-what-I-THINK . NO FEAR . He knows !!
All I have to do is ASK , and I shall be GIVEN ... Including TRUST .


Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord

[Dora]

Wow looks like you have the answer. The hard part will be putting it to work and keeping it working.

We are human. Praying for you on this journey. Keep on sis.

Oh the weeds. Let me get my garden gloves on.

[favored1]

Thanks guys for the encouragement, it's greatly appreciated.