A painful time in my life
Posted: Wed Oct 20, 2010 8:35 pmAfter my mom past I got very angry with God for taking her and making me live the rest of my life without my mom. I was only 35 at that time.
Not sure if this was right but I felt like I was on the verge of almost hating God for what happened. I blamed him for the longest time.
Then when we started going to church, I found out that God did not take her from me, he was saving her from the devil and his band of goonies, but I didn't learn that til about 10 years after she died. So it was a very painful and trying time for me till I learned the truth about it. Then when I found that out, I also found that the devil was giving me those feelings and it was not Gods fault. That's when I got very mad at the devil and kicked his hinny to the curb and would not listen to his lying any longer
Just like when I stopped smoking he started to come around me again and I just asked God to take him and deal with him cause I just would not do it or deal with him and his lies again.
So this is my testimony to everyone and it is not easy for me to share this for that was and still is a very painful and sore spot in my life. I know that God heals all wounds but this one is taking a very long time to heal. I also have my Sisters' death and my Dads' death to deal with so it makes it very hard sometimes to rely and lean on God for his strength cause I have always done it alone so is hard for me to do, but working at it one day at a time.
Gramms
Not sure if this was right but I felt like I was on the verge of almost hating God for what happened. I blamed him for the longest time.
Then when we started going to church, I found out that God did not take her from me, he was saving her from the devil and his band of goonies, but I didn't learn that til about 10 years after she died. So it was a very painful and trying time for me till I learned the truth about it. Then when I found that out, I also found that the devil was giving me those feelings and it was not Gods fault. That's when I got very mad at the devil and kicked his hinny to the curb and would not listen to his lying any longer
Just like when I stopped smoking he started to come around me again and I just asked God to take him and deal with him cause I just would not do it or deal with him and his lies again.
So this is my testimony to everyone and it is not easy for me to share this for that was and still is a very painful and sore spot in my life. I know that God heals all wounds but this one is taking a very long time to heal. I also have my Sisters' death and my Dads' death to deal with so it makes it very hard sometimes to rely and lean on God for his strength cause I have always done it alone so is hard for me to do, but working at it one day at a time.
Gramms
