i got a confession (or 2)
Posted: Wed Jan 28, 2009 3:20 pm
As some of you may recall, I was donig some pretty bad stuff. I'm only gonna focus on 2 right now.
1- Smokeless Tobacco.....I made a promise to the Lord I was gonna stop it. After a small blow-up at work due to niccotine withdrawl, I realized I needed to have a talk with Him. We agreed it may be in my best interest if I continued using it. It's bad when your'e boss notices you are acting different. Sorry that I dissapointed anyone here.
2- Porn..... I looked at some videos the other night. But, this time was unlike any other. I told the Lord I was gonna do it, but with objection. After a few minutes, I asked myself , " Tim, why did you look at this crap?!?!?!?!" I had no feeling of excitement like before. Only feelings of shame and guilt.
So, now I guess I just keep on keeping on. I had to do one for the fact of keeping my job and my sanity. The other was to test myself. I'm still asking myself why I looked at that stuff and seemed to enjoy it.
I know I'm weak at times. I say things maybe I should keep quiet. But, I'm still ya'lls brother Red and that will never change.
Love you all and GOD BLESS!!!!
Tim
1- Smokeless Tobacco.....I made a promise to the Lord I was gonna stop it. After a small blow-up at work due to niccotine withdrawl, I realized I needed to have a talk with Him. We agreed it may be in my best interest if I continued using it. It's bad when your'e boss notices you are acting different. Sorry that I dissapointed anyone here.
2- Porn..... I looked at some videos the other night. But, this time was unlike any other. I told the Lord I was gonna do it, but with objection. After a few minutes, I asked myself , " Tim, why did you look at this crap?!?!?!?!" I had no feeling of excitement like before. Only feelings of shame and guilt.
So, now I guess I just keep on keeping on. I had to do one for the fact of keeping my job and my sanity. The other was to test myself. I'm still asking myself why I looked at that stuff and seemed to enjoy it.
I know I'm weak at times. I say things maybe I should keep quiet. But, I'm still ya'lls brother Red and that will never change.
Love you all and GOD BLESS!!!!
Tim