Where ive come from... to where Hes taking me part 2
Posted: Fri Jan 09, 2009 9:29 amOk guys i have been waiting on the Lord for the right time to write my second testimony of rededication> He's nudging me now, so here it goes...
I came to know Christ a little after my daughter was born. At that time i was a single mom of 2. I started going to church i felt so much love and acceptance from everyone, I grew in the Lord so much. I was on fire for the Lord. God softend my heart to the mission field and i had a zeal for missions. Mission week was my favorite time of the year! I volunteered and worked in the nursery, mission week, even had missionary families from the church over my house for dinner. God was nudging me towards missions.
I started to invite my family to church. It was like a family awakening at that time and i remember the Pastor had mentioned it during one of his services. I had even started a bible study that met once a week at one of my relatives houses (we sometimes took turns). The whole family was on fire for the Lord. He started something in me that was contagious to the rest of us Freedom, Love, Forgiveness, Truth, Salvation, Peace,etc. It was awesome, He is awesome. I thank Him for that! Praise HIm for that!
So here I was growing in the Lord and i got a message from God to go to the mission field when i was praying one nite. Now you could imagine my surprise that He would pick me of all the other people, He chose me. So i was obedient and went to the pastor for advice, he was busy that day so he sent me in to talk with the asst pastor at that time. I explained to the asst pastor what God had put on my heart and how excited i was. I was ready to pack my bags and go wherever He wanted me to go. I wanted to know what i needed to do. You know what he told me?
He said Jill i think its wonderful that u want to serve the Lord but quite frankly i dont see how a single mom can be a missionary. ANd told me that if i had a husband things might be different.And after a little more talk he sent me on my way. Just like that. You could imagine the disapointment i had. I believed him because of his title. I believed in man. I started to tell myself that... what a joke i am to think God would choose me to do His work. I am not worthy. I have too much baggage. You see my friend I let Satan snuff my fire. Now i dont blame the man for this at all, im not bitter so please dont misunderstand. I was at fault because i believed in man who was imperfect instead of listening to God's perfect plan.
Acts 2:9 Peter and the other apostles replied, " We must obey god rather than men.
I should of went to prayer immediately and found a way to mission, maybe go a different avenue of missions or something like that. I should not of gave up on the Lords calling for me that easily. But i let satans lies stand and believed them.
So then is when i started to backslide. I married the first man that took interest in me. I thought at that time well if i had a husband and God wanted me to mission he would again lead me in that direction. Wrong answer. That was my will not God's. Needless to say the marriage failed and we divorced in 2005. I had another son in 2001.
So here I am divorced, 3 kids now, on my own again. When we divorced i tried to fill the void of not having God with sin. NOt good at all.
It wasnt until october 2008. A man came into where i work and said he was a christian. So we started to talk and did some bible study over the phone. My van was due to get repoed, and he came to my rescue and let me borrow his car, and said that it was out of friendship and the kindness of his heart. He said once i get my income tax money i can give him back the car and i could purchase one at that time. Nice right? wrong!!!
Came to find out after time that this man wanted to b involved with me other than a friend and was preying on my weak spirit at the time. One day he just started acting strange and told me that God had told him that i was going to be his wife. Now i knew better than that because thats not what God told me. In any event i ended up giving back his car in the beginning of december i could no longer go through the stress and turmoil he was putting me under. He got furious when i did that, and i saw his true fruits. In fact just a few days ago i had to get my number changed and i threatened to file a police report for harassment if he didnt leave me alone. He still calls my job. Its a mess. But Praise God because last week God provided me with a car!!!
Meanwhile when all this was going on i rededicated my life back to Christ. I started thirsting again, He started to renew my mind again and transform me in what he wanted me to be. I surrendered to His will. One day i was looking on the internet for a christian chat room. I stumbled on here. I felt so much acceptance and love. It truly is an oasis. It is a wonderful ministry and is truly blessed by God. i started the counseling program here and got realy close to God, then i started the Many Called Few Chosen study course. Was eye opening realy powerful! God started filling me more and more as I yielded to Him. He started to put people in front of me whom He wanted me to help and i obeyed this time. I didnt ask no questions. Ive learned alot in these fast few months. alot of what i wrote today came from the wisdom He gave me to look back and see what happened and the Spirit of God helped me figure it all out.
Overall i just wanted to say look at the mission field He has led me to now. Hes led me to help a lot people thus far. And I look forward to serving for many more here and abroad. I strive to love others as Christ loved me.
May God bless you and yours.
His servant,
Jill
1 Corinthians 1:27
But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;
I came to know Christ a little after my daughter was born. At that time i was a single mom of 2. I started going to church i felt so much love and acceptance from everyone, I grew in the Lord so much. I was on fire for the Lord. God softend my heart to the mission field and i had a zeal for missions. Mission week was my favorite time of the year! I volunteered and worked in the nursery, mission week, even had missionary families from the church over my house for dinner. God was nudging me towards missions.
I started to invite my family to church. It was like a family awakening at that time and i remember the Pastor had mentioned it during one of his services. I had even started a bible study that met once a week at one of my relatives houses (we sometimes took turns). The whole family was on fire for the Lord. He started something in me that was contagious to the rest of us Freedom, Love, Forgiveness, Truth, Salvation, Peace,etc. It was awesome, He is awesome. I thank Him for that! Praise HIm for that!
So here I was growing in the Lord and i got a message from God to go to the mission field when i was praying one nite. Now you could imagine my surprise that He would pick me of all the other people, He chose me. So i was obedient and went to the pastor for advice, he was busy that day so he sent me in to talk with the asst pastor at that time. I explained to the asst pastor what God had put on my heart and how excited i was. I was ready to pack my bags and go wherever He wanted me to go. I wanted to know what i needed to do. You know what he told me?
He said Jill i think its wonderful that u want to serve the Lord but quite frankly i dont see how a single mom can be a missionary. ANd told me that if i had a husband things might be different.And after a little more talk he sent me on my way. Just like that. You could imagine the disapointment i had. I believed him because of his title. I believed in man. I started to tell myself that... what a joke i am to think God would choose me to do His work. I am not worthy. I have too much baggage. You see my friend I let Satan snuff my fire. Now i dont blame the man for this at all, im not bitter so please dont misunderstand. I was at fault because i believed in man who was imperfect instead of listening to God's perfect plan.
Acts 2:9 Peter and the other apostles replied, " We must obey god rather than men.
I should of went to prayer immediately and found a way to mission, maybe go a different avenue of missions or something like that. I should not of gave up on the Lords calling for me that easily. But i let satans lies stand and believed them.
So then is when i started to backslide. I married the first man that took interest in me. I thought at that time well if i had a husband and God wanted me to mission he would again lead me in that direction. Wrong answer. That was my will not God's. Needless to say the marriage failed and we divorced in 2005. I had another son in 2001.
So here I am divorced, 3 kids now, on my own again. When we divorced i tried to fill the void of not having God with sin. NOt good at all.
It wasnt until october 2008. A man came into where i work and said he was a christian. So we started to talk and did some bible study over the phone. My van was due to get repoed, and he came to my rescue and let me borrow his car, and said that it was out of friendship and the kindness of his heart. He said once i get my income tax money i can give him back the car and i could purchase one at that time. Nice right? wrong!!!
Came to find out after time that this man wanted to b involved with me other than a friend and was preying on my weak spirit at the time. One day he just started acting strange and told me that God had told him that i was going to be his wife. Now i knew better than that because thats not what God told me. In any event i ended up giving back his car in the beginning of december i could no longer go through the stress and turmoil he was putting me under. He got furious when i did that, and i saw his true fruits. In fact just a few days ago i had to get my number changed and i threatened to file a police report for harassment if he didnt leave me alone. He still calls my job. Its a mess. But Praise God because last week God provided me with a car!!!
Meanwhile when all this was going on i rededicated my life back to Christ. I started thirsting again, He started to renew my mind again and transform me in what he wanted me to be. I surrendered to His will. One day i was looking on the internet for a christian chat room. I stumbled on here. I felt so much acceptance and love. It truly is an oasis. It is a wonderful ministry and is truly blessed by God. i started the counseling program here and got realy close to God, then i started the Many Called Few Chosen study course. Was eye opening realy powerful! God started filling me more and more as I yielded to Him. He started to put people in front of me whom He wanted me to help and i obeyed this time. I didnt ask no questions. Ive learned alot in these fast few months. alot of what i wrote today came from the wisdom He gave me to look back and see what happened and the Spirit of God helped me figure it all out.
Overall i just wanted to say look at the mission field He has led me to now. Hes led me to help a lot people thus far. And I look forward to serving for many more here and abroad. I strive to love others as Christ loved me.
May God bless you and yours.
His servant,
Jill
1 Corinthians 1:27
But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;
