Long road back
Posted: Thu Nov 20, 2008 3:04 pmLet me start by saying it's good to be home again. I have been away from this site for far to long.
We all go through things that test us. I have been there and I'm sure you have as well. My church was making me feel awkward.It wasn't the elders or even our preacher. Just people there. I went to myspace. That was cool for a little while. I used it to keep up with some friends of mine that wrestle. Here's where it gets funny. As in weird. They either dropped me from there list or got off the site. I had other people drop me from there list as well and I had no idea why. Then ....it happened. A face from my past. I got a message from an old girlfriend from high school.We talked for a bit and that's when it all started making sense.Between looking at stuff online I shouldn't be to the fallout at church and the past finding me...I got woke up.On a Saturday afternoon I was playing golf here at the house. (AHHH the joy of a golf course in your front yard.Anyway.)I was 3 sheets to the wind and it was almost like I heard a voice saying to me, " Boy , you know better than this.". I didn't pay it no mind.Then a few days later , I heard it again.I figured I may need to take heed to it.
Which leads us to now.I started doing a lot of forgiving. I started with the old girlfriend and moved on to friends and family. I sent word to all my buddies who text me jokes and thing of the sort and told them I was re-focusing on my relationship with the Lord. I told the old girlfriend that as well. They all understood. Which was a shock to me. A few of them even offered support for my new venture. My wife and I found a new church and the people are so genuine and sincere.I left myspace for christianspaceonline. But , something was missing. I needed people online who felt the way I do. I needed to be able to chat with these people. I tried a few chat rooms ....it worked. But ,I needed an oasis. Then I realized I had an oasis all along. I was just a knucklehead and left.
If anyone that reads this can relate. I hope to hear from you.
If you happen to be an old friend from this site that reads this, I'm sorry I was gone. Please forgive me.
We all go through things that test us. I have been there and I'm sure you have as well. My church was making me feel awkward.It wasn't the elders or even our preacher. Just people there. I went to myspace. That was cool for a little while. I used it to keep up with some friends of mine that wrestle. Here's where it gets funny. As in weird. They either dropped me from there list or got off the site. I had other people drop me from there list as well and I had no idea why. Then ....it happened. A face from my past. I got a message from an old girlfriend from high school.We talked for a bit and that's when it all started making sense.Between looking at stuff online I shouldn't be to the fallout at church and the past finding me...I got woke up.On a Saturday afternoon I was playing golf here at the house. (AHHH the joy of a golf course in your front yard.Anyway.)I was 3 sheets to the wind and it was almost like I heard a voice saying to me, " Boy , you know better than this.". I didn't pay it no mind.Then a few days later , I heard it again.I figured I may need to take heed to it.
Which leads us to now.I started doing a lot of forgiving. I started with the old girlfriend and moved on to friends and family. I sent word to all my buddies who text me jokes and thing of the sort and told them I was re-focusing on my relationship with the Lord. I told the old girlfriend that as well. They all understood. Which was a shock to me. A few of them even offered support for my new venture. My wife and I found a new church and the people are so genuine and sincere.I left myspace for christianspaceonline. But , something was missing. I needed people online who felt the way I do. I needed to be able to chat with these people. I tried a few chat rooms ....it worked. But ,I needed an oasis. Then I realized I had an oasis all along. I was just a knucklehead and left.
If anyone that reads this can relate. I hope to hear from you.
If you happen to be an old friend from this site that reads this, I'm sorry I was gone. Please forgive me.
, but since I bean back on I have a lot of friends now I fit in because I opened up 
. And im very happy that im back on, and im happy for you to. God bless you. 
