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Re: You have no place here!!!Do I have a right to be mad at
SUNDAY 1 APRIL 2012
Its 830am I Went to church she stood and bared her testimony and I felt mad inside Ive known her since I was 9, she use to teach sunday school, why didnt she come and save me, I sobbed, didnt wanna be there so I left a littlr after.
Its 11pm so today is just about over and oh what a day, I dont think I have ever had so much happen in one day. (yes you have but remember you were on another planet so you didnt notice it) thats so true.
Rocks were thrown every which way and it started at church.
Im sorry though I cant type tonight because one of the other things Ive changed is my sleeping habbit, see when I was on drugs I would stay up so late I never went to bed before midnight my night was more like day, since I was given a second chance I have been in bed BEFORE 10 so see I am trying so hard to not go back to old habbits.
Goodnight
Its 830am I Went to church she stood and bared her testimony and I felt mad inside Ive known her since I was 9, she use to teach sunday school, why didnt she come and save me, I sobbed, didnt wanna be there so I left a littlr after.
Its 11pm so today is just about over and oh what a day, I dont think I have ever had so much happen in one day. (yes you have but remember you were on another planet so you didnt notice it) thats so true.
Rocks were thrown every which way and it started at church.
Im sorry though I cant type tonight because one of the other things Ive changed is my sleeping habbit, see when I was on drugs I would stay up so late I never went to bed before midnight my night was more like day, since I was given a second chance I have been in bed BEFORE 10 so see I am trying so hard to not go back to old habbits.
Goodnight
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popples - Posts: 162
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Re: You have no place here!!!! Still going
popples, I so enjoy reading your journal I have been following along with you and last night I had a post ready at about 3 a.m. and it vanished I thought ok I'll do it tomorrow. Then today I see the wonderful thing you wrote on my post. Thank you again. I read it, reread it, the asked humblevisitor to read it and said ok tell me what you think that means he laughed and said you need to reread things some times to understand them better.
When things get to me there are 2 verses that I repeat to myself "I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me" Phil 4:13 and "Greater is he that is in ME than that is in the WORLD" So some days it may look like I am singing it I admit. But saying it when I have bad days does make me feel better and is a reminder I am not alone in this. So maybe it can help you when the dealer calls or a "old friend" comes by wanting to "score".
Keep up the good work. Your doing great. God Bless You.
Luvs
danty
When things get to me there are 2 verses that I repeat to myself "I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me" Phil 4:13 and "Greater is he that is in ME than that is in the WORLD" So some days it may look like I am singing it I admit. But saying it when I have bad days does make me feel better and is a reminder I am not alone in this. So maybe it can help you when the dealer calls or a "old friend" comes by wanting to "score".
Keep up the good work. Your doing great. God Bless You.
Luvs
danty
"Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them." Mark 11:24
Remember God loves you,
danty
Remember God loves you,
danty
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dantyriverside - Posts: 87
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Re: You have no place here!!!! Still going
Wow Gwen,
What a wonderful achievement. The Lord put this verse in my heart, and told me to post it.
James 4:7 Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
Gwen, when the devil comes around trying to tempt you, turn him away and tell him he ain't welcome anymore. Oh he seems caring and nice, but don't buy into his schemes, he only brings darkness and death, our Lord will give you light and life. Keep God in, keep the devil out.
What a wonderful achievement. The Lord put this verse in my heart, and told me to post it.
James 4:7 Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
Gwen, when the devil comes around trying to tempt you, turn him away and tell him he ain't welcome anymore. Oh he seems caring and nice, but don't buy into his schemes, he only brings darkness and death, our Lord will give you light and life. Keep God in, keep the devil out.
To shine in one light.
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ServeGod - Posts: 249
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Re: You have no place here!(Do I have the right to be angrey
Monday 2/April 530am
I dont think I really wanna talk about yesterday alot of childhood things were bougt up, is that the right way to deal with it or is that the way I use to deal with it??? please someone guide me here, all I know is after reading the replies I did last night I had a peaceful sleep. Praise God
Lord I pray your presence be with me today, I am so grateful for this person I didnt know was me, Lord I owe you my life you have blessed me everyday with new things, I am experiencing only a tiny amount of what Jesus went through, thankyou for these triles to make me a better person, but a bigger praise for carrying me through them.
Thankyou for Oasis
Only in your name Jesus
Amen
[u]Same Day 8am[/u]
I guess the first thing is I had changed my title (Do I have a right to be angrey at her?) I changed it to (Renew Mind)
I spoke to a friend on facebook earlier and she was so angrey at a friend of ours from somthing that happened last night.
Same day 10pm
I messed up I dont know why, sigh what the heck...why Im so stupid anyway dont feel like talking.
I dont think I really wanna talk about yesterday alot of childhood things were bougt up, is that the right way to deal with it or is that the way I use to deal with it??? please someone guide me here, all I know is after reading the replies I did last night I had a peaceful sleep. Praise God
Lord I pray your presence be with me today, I am so grateful for this person I didnt know was me, Lord I owe you my life you have blessed me everyday with new things, I am experiencing only a tiny amount of what Jesus went through, thankyou for these triles to make me a better person, but a bigger praise for carrying me through them.
Thankyou for Oasis
Only in your name Jesus
Amen
[u]Same Day 8am[/u]
I guess the first thing is I had changed my title (Do I have a right to be angrey at her?) I changed it to (Renew Mind)
I spoke to a friend on facebook earlier and she was so angrey at a friend of ours from somthing that happened last night.
Same day 10pm
I messed up I dont know why, sigh what the heck...why Im so stupid anyway dont feel like talking.
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popples - Posts: 162
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Re: You have no place here! MESSED UP
Tuesday 3/4
Lord I have nowhere to go but you. It was day 16 and today I used. (that was the hardest thing to say)
[b]Same Day 7am[/b]
I have to be honest when I scored last night I scored ah eextra one for this morning. As I was getting everything ready I noticed (mynameissimon) was in chat. So I thought I would join him. I pm him and told about yesterday, just missed out the part about getting the extra one.
Simon was guideing me with some news from God, that he still loved me even though I had fallen, which has always been hard for me to belive, well at this stage I was just preparing the stuff I scored and lent over and bumped the spoon...OH NO... The stuff on the spoon is very fine powder and just gone not on the spoon anymore.
I just have to tell you about my bedroom. Its always clean and tidy. I have painted floorboards and usually they are so clean and dust free. I have a table that is polished wood allso and never has a cover on it because the wood is beautiful enough but two days ago I covered the table with a woolen rug I made ages ago.
I looked on the floor and all I could see were bits of dirt and hair, I franticly lifted the rug, it had gone, serious GONE GONE GONE.
It was a very fast reminder that I had lost track of why I am here and that My Father in Heaven is so real, I felt the Holly Spirit talking to me through Simon.
Praise God that I can start my day 1 again clean, Lord I only have you to thank , Lord I ask you to renew my mind as I start this day.
In your name Jesus
AMEN
Lord I have nowhere to go but you. It was day 16 and today I used. (that was the hardest thing to say)
[b]Same Day 7am[/b]
I have to be honest when I scored last night I scored ah eextra one for this morning. As I was getting everything ready I noticed (mynameissimon) was in chat. So I thought I would join him. I pm him and told about yesterday, just missed out the part about getting the extra one.
Simon was guideing me with some news from God, that he still loved me even though I had fallen, which has always been hard for me to belive, well at this stage I was just preparing the stuff I scored and lent over and bumped the spoon...OH NO... The stuff on the spoon is very fine powder and just gone not on the spoon anymore.
I just have to tell you about my bedroom. Its always clean and tidy. I have painted floorboards and usually they are so clean and dust free. I have a table that is polished wood allso and never has a cover on it because the wood is beautiful enough but two days ago I covered the table with a woolen rug I made ages ago.
I looked on the floor and all I could see were bits of dirt and hair, I franticly lifted the rug, it had gone, serious GONE GONE GONE.
It was a very fast reminder that I had lost track of why I am here and that My Father in Heaven is so real, I felt the Holly Spirit talking to me through Simon.
Praise God that I can start my day 1 again clean, Lord I only have you to thank , Lord I ask you to renew my mind as I start this day.
In your name Jesus
AMEN
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popples - Posts: 162
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Re: You have no place here! MESSED UP
OK Gwen...
About two or three months ago at my son's school (he is 14) a girl was (for some reason we never really got to the bottom of) writing on her hand, in ink, the numbers 66666666666666666666666 and so on (the sign of the devil is three 6s). (We think there is some weird satanist thing going on in school). Anyway, she wrote these 6s on the palm of her hand in class. A few minutes later, everyone in class heard her freak out because she looked at her hand and the 6s were gone. They should have needed seriously scrubbing off with soap, but they just vanished and she really screamed. After a LOT of talking about this, we have come to the conclusion that it was God saying to her 'you don't need this stuff'.
I think He has just done the same with you.
That's a miracle Gwen. God loves you. You don't need this stuff. You need God. He knows it, you know it. And He's got you by the hand, dear sis. He's guiding you. ALL the way.
God loves you Gwen. God loves Eric. God loves your family. He doesn't want you to suffer, He wants you to seek Him, like any good father would want their son or daughter to come home to safety. I think God has just shown you a vital path home.
Jesus has paid for your mistakes. He did so on the cross. He paid the price for our mistakes by undergoing the most excrutiating pain. The word 'excrutiating' comes from the Latin for 'from the cross' because it was the most terrible, barbaric execution. Jesus did this because He loves YOU and ME. He has paid for your mistakes and my mistakes. Your guilt is gone. Your shame is gone. You don't need that powder any more. You don't need satan any more, so tell him to take a running jump. Take the heavy luggage of guilt and shame that you have been carrying around and dump them at the foot of the cross and give thanks to God for His amazing grace. Because Jesus's burden is light. He doesn't want you to worry any more. (Matthew 6: 25-33)
Simon
About two or three months ago at my son's school (he is 14) a girl was (for some reason we never really got to the bottom of) writing on her hand, in ink, the numbers 66666666666666666666666 and so on (the sign of the devil is three 6s). (We think there is some weird satanist thing going on in school). Anyway, she wrote these 6s on the palm of her hand in class. A few minutes later, everyone in class heard her freak out because she looked at her hand and the 6s were gone. They should have needed seriously scrubbing off with soap, but they just vanished and she really screamed. After a LOT of talking about this, we have come to the conclusion that it was God saying to her 'you don't need this stuff'.
I think He has just done the same with you.
That's a miracle Gwen. God loves you. You don't need this stuff. You need God. He knows it, you know it. And He's got you by the hand, dear sis. He's guiding you. ALL the way.
God loves you Gwen. God loves Eric. God loves your family. He doesn't want you to suffer, He wants you to seek Him, like any good father would want their son or daughter to come home to safety. I think God has just shown you a vital path home.
Jesus has paid for your mistakes. He did so on the cross. He paid the price for our mistakes by undergoing the most excrutiating pain. The word 'excrutiating' comes from the Latin for 'from the cross' because it was the most terrible, barbaric execution. Jesus did this because He loves YOU and ME. He has paid for your mistakes and my mistakes. Your guilt is gone. Your shame is gone. You don't need that powder any more. You don't need satan any more, so tell him to take a running jump. Take the heavy luggage of guilt and shame that you have been carrying around and dump them at the foot of the cross and give thanks to God for His amazing grace. Because Jesus's burden is light. He doesn't want you to worry any more. (Matthew 6: 25-33)
Simon
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HelloMyNameIsSimon - Posts: 51
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Re: You have no place here!Finding the light
WEDNESDAY 10.54am 4/4/2012
Do you remember I said I didnt want to loose sight of why I was here? Well I just read simons reply and realized I had, yesterday I didnt even come and write which means I didnt even come to God all day.
Everyday we have to reallise how easy it is to loose sight of GODS plan, I guess the light doesnt come to us we have to open doors (the bible) pull back the curtains (pray).
The old me would be sulking oh poor me....but the new me needs to move on.
YOU HAVE NO PLACE HERE SATAN IN MY LIFE OR IN THE LIFE OF THOSE THAT I LOVE
Lord yesterday you spared all my children, the first time the 3 of them all together in one car. They had a crash and Lord how did they survive but through you. I love you Lord and I love the triles I have had because of them I am who I am today. Lord you carried those chilren and my grankids from that car. Praise you that today I have them.
Im feeling a little weriey today nothing much but one little step at a time. Going for a rest.
God Bless
Do you remember I said I didnt want to loose sight of why I was here? Well I just read simons reply and realized I had, yesterday I didnt even come and write which means I didnt even come to God all day.
Everyday we have to reallise how easy it is to loose sight of GODS plan, I guess the light doesnt come to us we have to open doors (the bible) pull back the curtains (pray).
The old me would be sulking oh poor me....but the new me needs to move on.
YOU HAVE NO PLACE HERE SATAN IN MY LIFE OR IN THE LIFE OF THOSE THAT I LOVE
Lord yesterday you spared all my children, the first time the 3 of them all together in one car. They had a crash and Lord how did they survive but through you. I love you Lord and I love the triles I have had because of them I am who I am today. Lord you carried those chilren and my grankids from that car. Praise you that today I have them.
Im feeling a little weriey today nothing much but one little step at a time. Going for a rest.
God Bless
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popples - Posts: 162
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Re: You have no place here! MESSED UP
God forgives. Now forgive yourself. We can start fresh each day because of his grace and the blood that was shed for us.
I can't count the times I fell off the wagon. Today, I am grateful.
GBU BRO.
Also , I am thankful that God used Simon as a vessel to help ya.
Real
I can't count the times I fell off the wagon. Today, I am grateful.
GBU BRO.
Also , I am thankful that God used Simon as a vessel to help ya.
Real
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Re: You have no place here! Drugs again???/
Saturday 7/4 12pm
I feel like Im on fishing line and reel myself away from God so much but after rereading what (realtmg) said, I realized I dont have to carry guilt like I normally do and run from God I can come to him everyday as a new person, start again.
So as I said I feel like Im on a fishing line, god doesnt give up on me he reels me back every day.
I just have to add this when I read your reply the other day real I apreciated it but when I read it today I learnt from it. THANKYOU.
Do you remember me saying in my past entries that if it was days since I wote in here it was because I was falling into Satans demands?? Well thats what I have been doing. I am feeling tired so Im going to have a nap.
I feel like Im on fishing line and reel myself away from God so much but after rereading what (realtmg) said, I realized I dont have to carry guilt like I normally do and run from God I can come to him everyday as a new person, start again.
So as I said I feel like Im on a fishing line, god doesnt give up on me he reels me back every day.
I just have to add this when I read your reply the other day real I apreciated it but when I read it today I learnt from it. THANKYOU.
Do you remember me saying in my past entries that if it was days since I wote in here it was because I was falling into Satans demands?? Well thats what I have been doing. I am feeling tired so Im going to have a nap.
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popples - Posts: 162
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Re: You have no place here! Drugs again???
Sleep is so very important to us in order to revitalise us and keep our minds focused and our bodies strong. It'll help keep satan at bay too. Sleep and rest is a gift from God, we should use it more! 100 years ago everyone slept 9 hours a day! The busy rat-race doesn't seem to allow that these days, so lets take a lesson from our great Grandparents!
God will NEVER give up on you - He will reel you us day after day. We just gotta stop struggling on the line and allow Him to reel us in - He's actually rescuing us from dangerous waters!
May God bless you and Eric and your family Gwen!
God will NEVER give up on you - He will reel you us day after day. We just gotta stop struggling on the line and allow Him to reel us in - He's actually rescuing us from dangerous waters!
May God bless you and Eric and your family Gwen!
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HelloMyNameIsSimon - Posts: 51
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Re: You have no place here! Drugs again???
Sunday 8 April 7am
Ohmy body is craving, its hurting but Im gonna drag it out of bed and go to church.
Ohmy body is craving, its hurting but Im gonna drag it out of bed and go to church.
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popples - Posts: 162
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Re: You have no place here! Drugs again???
You know, many who read in Genesis the creation account view In the beginning to be strictly about the creation of our world. And it IS the account of creation. But I submit to you that In the beginning has a practical application TODAY FOR ALL.
Before we were saved..before we came to know Jesus as our Savior, we were like the world in this account. We were spiritually void and without form and then God said: "Let there be light" and we received the Light of Christ in our life.
So, one way to read the Creation story in the Bible is as God's account of this world's beginnings. But, also for us to see that WE all have an In the beginning in our own lives. And, this not only can be applied to when we first believed but as humans, we all make mistakes. By God's Grace, even after we are Saved, we can have other In the beginning moments in our life.
The GREATEST MISTAKE a person can ever make is the one he or she never learns from.
God bless you!
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