Hope
Posted: Mon Jan 20, 2014 12:06 am
Today has been a very emotional day. So many emotions and so much turmoil.... I was losing hope. hope for a better future. Life has been very hard past several months, some parts my fault with poor decisions, some parts beyond my control. I have a deep love for animals and foster for a rescue. Well I am in danger of losing my home after having gotten laid off. the only job I could find was making 10k less a year which is a HUGE impact on well, everything. I sat here today with tears in my eyes looking at my fur kids and thinking I was going to have to let go and try to find homes for my two personal dogs, knowing the rescue would take the two fosters I have. My heart is breaking. I keep applying for jobs and keep getting denial emails or no response at all even though I am well qualified for the jobs I have applied for. Today I was at the lowest I have been in a really long time. I had thought to put one of my personal dogs up for adoption to try to help her find a fur ever home where she would be loved and cared for the rest of her life here on earth. In talking with a few people I got awesome news in that one of the fosters I recently cared for went for a trial visit with a vet and it looks like they are going to adopt that precious fur kid. One of my fosters is deaf and no one seems to want him. I worry about him but the one I worry most about is my senior dog who is 11yrs old most people don't want older dogs. I talked with a few people and thank God I was given hope again. I don't know what the future holds and I don't know if I will be able to keep my house or my furkids but loss of hope is a horrible feeling I wouldn't want to wish on my worst enemy. What did I learn from this????? well besides already knowing God is in control and knowing that what I want may not be what He has in store for me.... I learned that God sent people to help restore my hope as without hope I saw no future. it was bleak and full of sadness and my heart was shattered. Lesson is when hurting, when you think all is lost.... don't give up..... reach out..... GBU all