Depression
Posted: Mon Dec 31, 2012 4:43 pm
I don' t know if I should begin with my depression, frustration, or anger. Anger is not as huge a deal I guess, I don' t have a hard time holding it in at least. Frustration is a bigger problem. It has gotten to the point where I seek ways to harm myself whenever something irritates me, (this one is a lot harder to hide. Although the harm I do to myself doesn't' even hurt, but I digress). A major problem I have, that I hate to acknowledge at all, is the fact that I do not feel like I am a child of God. Past memories and Such usually convince me of that statement, and then I fall into depression and cynicism. I have been reluctant to even mention it. To be honest, I do not like asking for help. Unfortunately, it is getting a lot harder to get out of depression, (although it is not as bad as before I came here)'. I' m not sure if I am asking for help, or just looking for a way to make it go away for awhile. I tried to read various studies, but when I'm depressed I cannot, and when I'm not depressed it does not really help.