Hey,
Just want to let you know I was going through those feelings not to long ago myself. Sometimes we start feeling sorry for ourselves when we don't feel loved or just having a bad time dealing with different things.
I don't know any of what is going on with you but I can tell you one thing... every problem that we have is very important to God! None of us are special in anyway that we get extra privileges from God. All we have to do is talk to Him and you will start seeing that the feeling of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE starts coming over you. Sometimes we can't even comprehend the LOVE GOD has for us! But it's there waiting for us.. 24/7 .. and it's FREE! What can you find nowadays that's FREE and it doesn't have something attached to it... like buy one at this price and get the next one free...
God doesn't work like we do.. :-)
You also have to remember who is playing with your THOUGHTS every second of your life.. and will until we breathe our last breath. Satan loves throwing things at us to make us feel hurt...pain... unloved... depressed.. lonely... and so much more. He knows our weaknesses and is watching for a time when we are weak to hit us full force. Here's the trick... Don't let him WIN... it's either going to be GOD wins or SATAN wins... but it's OUR CHOICE... that's the part where we come in and decide we are NOT PLAYING HIS GAMES!!!
I don't know how long you have been on this site or if you have went through the CHRISTIAN COUNSELING section. But if you haven't .. DO IT!!! That is why my life is RENEWED again! I signed up on this site Oct 2nd and began my new journey. I was actually looking for some Dr. to go to. I had come to the point where I new if I didn't get help... I wouldn't be here much longer. Then the Lord lead me here! The rest is history... :-)
If you have done the program... do it again! Somewhere along the way you let go of all the great ideas they are teaching us on how to handle everyday of our life. God will see you through all of this if your willing to take time to show Him your wanting to change. We have to come to the point in our lives that we either are going to keep going down a road that doesn't lead anywhere and it's full of problems that we can't even deal with most of the time.... or try a different road that is ALREADY PAVED WITH THE BLOOD OF JESUS... and everything is FREE!
Well.. I hope this has helped you in some way... I will be praying for you and if you need to ask me anything or just send me a post I'll be here off and on through the day tomorrow. I haven't had time to get to the chat section yet... but had my niece check it out and she loved it... so just let me know if I can help you in anyway.
Never forget... GOD DOES LOVE YOU... THERE IS NOTHING TO BIG OR TO SMALL THAT HE CAN'T FIX! I KNOW! HE FIXED ME! :-)
Love in Christ, Linda