Worries
Posted: Sat May 09, 2009 9:46 pm
There is so much going on in my life, I am having many mixed emotions. I am closing on my very own home on the 21st which is totally exciting but draining. I worry more because i am behind at work with documentation because of computer issues. I am worried and depressed over my roommate who still does not have a job and will be homeless unless he ends up in jail over childsupport. I am depressed because i think i am going to have to take the kitties to the pound. I am always tired. I pray some and read Gods word some and come here some but there never seems to be enough time to renew my mind completely and feel fresh and alive and full of energy. I am totally drained. Trying to pack and worrying about all the what ifs and worrying about my roommate who is acting like a condemned man, and in my heart i know i have to let go and let him face whatever he has to face. he has known for months that i was going to be getting my own place. He hasn't worked in months and getting him to do anything around the house is like trying to pull teeth. I know i should be at peace cuz God is in control and He will not give me more than i can handle. I am having a real hard time practicing it though. I am having a hard time managing my emotions and giving it all to God. I know that is exactly what i need to do, but i keep holding back. As if i can fix it. But i can't. Maybe that is why i am depressed. i don't really know. It should be an exciting time for me and i find myself worrying about everyone and everything. Any tips?