Sept 10
Posted: Thu Sep 10, 2009 7:09 am(Ecclesiastes 3: 4&5)
"A time to weep and a time to laugh.
A time to mourn and a time to dance."
(Matthew 5:4)
"Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted."
Each day I run a whole spectrum of emotions. Laughing at my kitten chasing my grown dogs around the house.
Crying when I had to get something out of Garys workshop and seeing his work bench set up with the thing he was working on and all his tools laid out like a surgeons instruments before an operation. The smell of oil and grease was in the air. The smell that was part of him at work and in his work shop.
I loved that smell. It was him.
I cried for over an hour. I had had supper alone. The first time since I can't even remember. I had homemade chicken soup which was one of Gary's favorites. He loved the simple things like chicken soup.
I am learning to allow myself to cry. Allow myself to laugh. Allow myself to say "no' to people who want me to do things I am not ready to do.
I praise the Lord for His goodness to me. I thank God for his provision as He has made me able to keep my house. I thank God for my church and their love for me. I thank God for Christianity Oasis and your love for me.
I praise God getting up now every morning. But I also allow myself to mourn. I know that I will be comforted as it says in Matthew 5:4
He is with me. Jesus cried when He learned of lazarus death. He knew He had the power to raise him from the dead. But He also allowed Himself to cry.
Sometimes as Christians we think crying is a sign of weakness. Not trusting God enough. Not praying enough.
But in reality God wants us to release the tears and let Him comfort us.
Thank you Lord.
(Lamentations 22&23)
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed. for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness."
He is with you and me through all the trials and all the tears. He never fails.
Love You All
Sylvia
"A time to weep and a time to laugh.
A time to mourn and a time to dance."
(Matthew 5:4)
"Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted."
Each day I run a whole spectrum of emotions. Laughing at my kitten chasing my grown dogs around the house.
Crying when I had to get something out of Garys workshop and seeing his work bench set up with the thing he was working on and all his tools laid out like a surgeons instruments before an operation. The smell of oil and grease was in the air. The smell that was part of him at work and in his work shop.
I loved that smell. It was him.
I cried for over an hour. I had had supper alone. The first time since I can't even remember. I had homemade chicken soup which was one of Gary's favorites. He loved the simple things like chicken soup.
I am learning to allow myself to cry. Allow myself to laugh. Allow myself to say "no' to people who want me to do things I am not ready to do.
I praise the Lord for His goodness to me. I thank God for his provision as He has made me able to keep my house. I thank God for my church and their love for me. I thank God for Christianity Oasis and your love for me.
I praise God getting up now every morning. But I also allow myself to mourn. I know that I will be comforted as it says in Matthew 5:4
He is with me. Jesus cried when He learned of lazarus death. He knew He had the power to raise him from the dead. But He also allowed Himself to cry.
Sometimes as Christians we think crying is a sign of weakness. Not trusting God enough. Not praying enough.
But in reality God wants us to release the tears and let Him comfort us.
Thank you Lord.
(Lamentations 22&23)
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed. for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness."
He is with you and me through all the trials and all the tears. He never fails.
Love You All
Sylvia
