I need help now, I don't want this lifestyle, I want GOD.
Posted: Thu Jan 08, 2015 10:05 pm
Hello everyone. I am a teenager whose struggling with his sexuality and I hope someone can hear my plea for help… I have no one to talk to in person about this, whether it be friends or family. I'm addicted to masturbation and pornography, I do at least 1-4 times a day, and I know it's not pleasing to God, I've commited adultery within my heart by looking lustfully at another. I've also started questioning my sexual orientation and have developed an attraction to my same sex. Yes, I think it's wrong. I think homosexuality is perverse, unnatural. I want to be a father one day, with a wife to raise my kids. That's how it's intended to be. My body is a temple for the Holy Spirit, and I've made a mockery of it. After discovering and exploring my sexuality I've felt farther from God than before. I find it harder to pray, harder to read His word with full focus. I want someone to pray for me. I want to be closer to God. Yes, I'm a Christian, I accepted Jesus when I was 8. Now, it feels almost as if I haven't... I love God. He loves me. Why don't I treat him like it? I don't know... I go to a Christian school where I have exposure to him everyday, but I always fall back into my sinful nature. The urges always come to me and I want to overcome my problem. I don't know how this will affect me in the future, I feel ruined as it is. Please help me...