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Why is it that the thing you know you most need to get rid of you cling to as if your very life depended on it?? well in a way it does as it can only lead to destruction and death.... but perhaps more acurately why can i not just let it go... and let God be in control of my life again? perhaps that is the question........ tired of running, tired of lying, mostly just tired. was a time when i was able to give it to God and day by day slowly things got better and better....... now im back in that same stupid sinking boat........ i know the lifepreserver.... i know how to get out i did it before. then got careless and jumped back in..... and still am in the sinking boat....... God Lord what was i thinking??? better yet............ why am i not grabbing tight onto the life preserver????

Hello Hope (((hugs)))

God bless you this day.

Try not to multi-task. Trying to reach for the Life Preserver while trying to clean yourself up has your mind and heart divided. Just reach for The Lord, your blessed Life Preserver -- He'll do the washing.

Prayers continue to rise to our Lord in the name of Jesus on your behalf. God's will be done.

God bless and keep you, dear Hope.
Love,
Mack

ty mack

seems like i just keep messing up... I recently got a really good paying job with great benefits. I tried very hard, dont like it much but i kept thinking i really need the money and the benefits... well i got my final written warning the other day. I think maybe God was helping me to realize it is not the place for me, granted ihave one last chance and i am about to understand the job finally but it is so hard and not really what i want to do. I guess the solution is to keep trying there while looking for something more along the lines of what is in my heart to do. After all money isnt everything i just need enough to cover bills buy groceries and keep my furkids and my house in working order. Things are not good at home ( as if that is anything unusual) i deserve nothing,,, i am hoping God will take mercy on this sinner fool yet again and save me from myself.