faithfully faithless
Posted: Mon May 05, 2008 11:28 pm
Its been a rouch week for me.
and its only monday evening.
I need something good to happen to me, and I need it soon before I lose faith in humanity. Im totally serious. Im struggling to understand why God would make such an amazing world with all these complex and amazing things in and and then h create Humans. who quickly took it upon themselves to try and destroy it, and each other.
although right now I say Im struggling to understand why God did that i think Im mostly just struggling to understand god. I know Im not supposed to. I know Im just supposed to have blind faith but its become increasingly difficult for me to do that over the last few weeks when I know that I cant even have blind faith in the tangible people of this world.
maybe thats how its supposed to be, maybe he's just trying to tell me that i should have more faith in him rather than my friends, and honestly I would rather not have faith in either one of them right now. my friends fail me, and right now I feel like God has too. its times like these that I really consider giving up. but then it crosses my mind that I have a few friends that never gave up on me and the bible says that God will never give up on me either.but its still very tempting to just give up cause its a hell of a lot easier than trying to have faith in something that makes me feel so faithless. but yeah...thats whats on my mind tonight. just thought Id vent alittle.
and its only monday evening.
I need something good to happen to me, and I need it soon before I lose faith in humanity. Im totally serious. Im struggling to understand why God would make such an amazing world with all these complex and amazing things in and and then h create Humans. who quickly took it upon themselves to try and destroy it, and each other.
although right now I say Im struggling to understand why God did that i think Im mostly just struggling to understand god. I know Im not supposed to. I know Im just supposed to have blind faith but its become increasingly difficult for me to do that over the last few weeks when I know that I cant even have blind faith in the tangible people of this world.
maybe thats how its supposed to be, maybe he's just trying to tell me that i should have more faith in him rather than my friends, and honestly I would rather not have faith in either one of them right now. my friends fail me, and right now I feel like God has too. its times like these that I really consider giving up. but then it crosses my mind that I have a few friends that never gave up on me and the bible says that God will never give up on me either.but its still very tempting to just give up cause its a hell of a lot easier than trying to have faith in something that makes me feel so faithless. but yeah...thats whats on my mind tonight. just thought Id vent alittle.