Journal # One
Posted: Wed May 27, 2015 2:00 pm
Hello,
I'm Tasha and this is my first journal post. I have come here to get some help with my negative thoughts and feelings. There has been one problem that I've been dealing with and it's trust.
I've been with my husband for 7 years and been married to him for a little over a year. This year has been the hardest. I've always had trust issues but recently it's been out of control. I'm always in fear that I'm going to be left. I guess this comes from my past. My husband is a great person. He hasn't done anything to hurt me. It's just I'm in constant fear that he's hiding something. I'm jealous of his female co workers and don't trust him or them. I'm pushing him away because of my nagging and questioning everything. I'm tired of my own nagging. I find myself wanting to express my feelings to him but just hold back because it goes nowhere. In his eyes he has done nothing wrong so he don't want to defend himself so we don't talk about my problems or thoughts anymore because it's just destroying our marriage.
I don't know what I need to do but something needs to change. I pray about my marriage and ask for guidance. I feel crazy that I'm this way to my husband. I've been so blessed with a wonderful husband and I'm destroying everything because of my thoughts and trust issues.
I'm Tasha and this is my first journal post. I have come here to get some help with my negative thoughts and feelings. There has been one problem that I've been dealing with and it's trust.
I've been with my husband for 7 years and been married to him for a little over a year. This year has been the hardest. I've always had trust issues but recently it's been out of control. I'm always in fear that I'm going to be left. I guess this comes from my past. My husband is a great person. He hasn't done anything to hurt me. It's just I'm in constant fear that he's hiding something. I'm jealous of his female co workers and don't trust him or them. I'm pushing him away because of my nagging and questioning everything. I'm tired of my own nagging. I find myself wanting to express my feelings to him but just hold back because it goes nowhere. In his eyes he has done nothing wrong so he don't want to defend himself so we don't talk about my problems or thoughts anymore because it's just destroying our marriage.
I don't know what I need to do but something needs to change. I pray about my marriage and ask for guidance. I feel crazy that I'm this way to my husband. I've been so blessed with a wonderful husband and I'm destroying everything because of my thoughts and trust issues.