step 12
Posted: Tue Jul 19, 2011 1:49 pmwhat can i say that hasnt already been said by someone else. my take on step 12 is this, it follows step 11 very nicely. funny thing is that as i progressed in this progam, id say by about step 8 or so i began to think the things that were said in the following step before i read it. hmmm, i see no irony in that. this program has made me a believer. plain and simple this has renewed my faith in christ and taught me very valuable things i can use if i choose to apply them.that doesnt mean i dont hurt or do stupid things anymore,but its given me tools to use when something affects me negatively or i make a poor choice and it affects someone else.i dont have to wallow in self pity, shame, or fear anymore. i know it doesnt sound like a big deal but if you people knew how depraved and indifferent i was 2 weeks ago you would understand. when i say i was a violent person i mean it. people were afraid of me...almost everyone...i also had serious addiction problems, which mysteriously just went away for some reason. i know im not perfect by any means but im dealing with my problems instead of running from them or blaming other people...i do however get weird looks from people when they ask me why i did what i did and i say the devil deceived me into believing i could do what i wanted when i wanted too...but we all know why they give those looks...because they too are lost and may be jealous of what i have found. the thing that stood out to me in step 12 was the part where it talked about looking out for people that are falling. its sad to say that the vast majority of the people i see are doing so...and coupled with what i have learned here and hearing the word of god in bible study, its my responsibility to witness to those that are falling....not sure that i am at that point since i am shortly removed from being a complete heathen but im excited about the idea of helping other people that were in similar situations as me. i even believe now that all the things i went through in my life were placed as obstacles so that when i did find the lord, it would glorify his name that much more because i was so low on the scale that if god can save me from myself, then who couldnt he?
my life is not the best worldly, my finances are in bad shape, i cant see my children or my wife and my family is still wary of me because i have tried so many times to change with no real long term affect, but those things really dont matter because with time, patience, faith and alot of hard work they will all correct themselves...the only thing i fear now is the retribution of an angry god if i fail in this attempt...im happy on the inside for the first time in many many years...thank you all and god bless
adam
my life is not the best worldly, my finances are in bad shape, i cant see my children or my wife and my family is still wary of me because i have tried so many times to change with no real long term affect, but those things really dont matter because with time, patience, faith and alot of hard work they will all correct themselves...the only thing i fear now is the retribution of an angry god if i fail in this attempt...im happy on the inside for the first time in many many years...thank you all and god bless
adam
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