day two of overcoming co-dependency (5/19/2011)
Posted: Thu May 19, 2011 10:23 pmThe devil is a liar. I had a dream about my ex last night. I woke up with it fresh in my head and I started to get alarmed with thoughts that it shouldnt have happened and worried that I was going to not have any peace all day. However, by God's grace, I had a most wonderful day. I was very relaxed. I contacted some people and planned some events to keep me active. I fasted until 5:30. I even joined a Godly meditation meetup. I just felt God's love all over me. I felt so close to deliverence. I am amazed at the hope in my spirit. I can see me enjoying the future and free from my bonds. I am so thankful for my friend Eltwaun but most of all I'm thankful that God has not given up on me. I love the surgeon and appreciate this surgical removal of this idol I had heaped up. It kept me away from God and made me dependent on man. Now I can say, God is having his will...I am seeing and understanding him soooooo much better. I was a lukewarm Christian but God refused to spit me up instead he chastised me and I can feel the heat and energy of God growing. The peace of God which is beyond understanding is gradually taking over and I am just thrilled. Not my will God, but to you be all glory. Thank you for these lessons, I had limbs that needed to be cut off that I may see the glory of God. Only a loving, compassionate father would go through the trouble of delivering me from myself. In the future I will no longer date, I will court the man God approves. I will not assume or presuppose for God, I will ask him what his will is and I will have a man after God's own heart!!!! Thank you!!!!!!
