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I had gotten so far from where I should have been. God is so good and patient, I feel changes coming on. My mind and my mouth were full of negative memories, thoughts and deeds. God is so gentle He's hard to notice, sometimes. Friends are echoing the negative back to me. You reap what you sow! I have to repent! Leave that stuff behind me and press forward! Encouragement is so much more constructive that criticism! Can y'all believe that I'm the same person that was here a couple of weeks ago? Amazing, isn't it! God has told me that I need to "wait." I don't know what I am waiting for, all I know is that blessings come from obedience. Know the truth and the truth shall set you free. I seek the truth. I have been reading Psalms and Proverbs. The word "wicked" kept gripping me. I think of dark, evil, icky, undesireable just bad and rotten. I had heard the term wicked translated as twisted as a candle wick. I received revelation that wicked is a bend, kink, slightly off, not perfected.When the almosts, not quite's and the complete opposites pile up, chaos ensues! Order is lost and so many feel the negative effects. Something right and good can have the same effect only the other way! I tried in and of myself to be good but I can't. My flesh fights my spirit and waws winning too much. It isn't going to be easy to become a child, again but I'm willing. My prayer is that I become teachable I limit me--not God, not man, not anybody.

it's not too late babs! you are willing

When I was reading what you posted, I was reminded what my Pastor said yesterday. He said that the enemy will twist the truth just a little so it sounds right and we follow without seeing. Then the next truth gets twisted too until we are on the wrong path without realizing it.

What were you thinking about when you heard "wait"? Ask for clarity

Hello Babs

God bless you this day.

New Beginnings!!! Yeah!!!

When you pray, pray for what you want -- not what you don't want. Same goes with speaking.

You spoke/typed of things being "twisted" in regards to wickedness. Well, the wicked one taught the world some really twisted ideologies. One being, that we don't want to be blindsided; therefore, the message is don't set yourself up for disappointment by "wishing" for something too grand or with too much conviction.

Talk about "twisted"!!!

John The Baptist preached Repentance. The Lord taught it too!!! Repentance is turning away from that which is evil. TURN AWAY!!! Don't do any double talking. The enemy of our soul joys in our double talk.

My prayer is that I become teachable and that it is not too late

Which is it? that you become teachable, OR that it is not too late? I mean think about it...if The Lord makes you teachable, then it's not too late, right? So why even stick that little disclaimer on at the end?

Are you worried that The Lord is going to blindside you? Nooooooo, I didn't think so. So listen for those blessed little corrections The Holy Spirit will give you and apply them.

Psalm 37:4 Delight thyself also in the Lord; and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
Psalm 37:5 Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in Him; and He shall bring it to pass.

The enemy of our souls is very subtil and crafty. But, you have The Holy Spirit to guide you and give you discernment against the wiles of the enemy.

The Lord loves you!!! Woooooohoooooo!!!

I'm so excited for you, Babs.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

I have heard this for so many years. "wait" It has become a habit. Sounds scary, doesn't it? I can remember 22 years ago my mom told me that it seemed as though I was waiting for something and she wanted to know what that something was. I told her that I felt it too but that I didn't know what it was. I have asked for another answer besides "wait" and received the answer "pace" Silly me, I'd pace the floors. I decided that there was something in God's timing that I just wasn't aware of and I would just have to wait for Him. Kind of like a spiritual "time out" I know that this is serious business. I'm comcerned with my eternal dwelling place. I question my salvation. In an earlier post I mentioned that I feared that I had been cut from the vine due to lack of good fruit. You have to admit--I have produced some pretty rotten fruit. I know that if the wicked will turn from their wicked ways, return to Him and seek His face that He will not cast them out. My problem is that I have tried to return so many times. I have taken the wheel, so to speak and it's hard to let someone else do the driving for me.

Mack--We typed over each other, again! I guess I'm a little anxious. Thank you for your post! Habits are hard to break but they are breakable praise God. You are so right, though. A double minded man should expect nothing. Again, I fell hook line and sinker! Gotta watch what I say and do!
If some of the replies seem a little odd, it's because I went back and edited my posts.

Hello Babs

Habits are just that...habits. And, yes, bad habits are breakable. The Holy Spirit will fill those empty spaces with new and righteous behaviors that reflect and pattern our Lord. Woooooohoooooo for godly character building. Thank You Lord.

If ever you feel the spirit behind a "friend's" message is wrong, yet the message is right -- give a shout of praise to our Lord... Thank You Jesus. Nothing will knock a "wrong" spirit off it's haunches faster than the name of Jesus.

You are doing well, Babs. God is so very Good!!!

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

I awoke this morning with conviction of yielding to the flesh. I don't want to face the day, so I turn over and lay there. Here comes the past! Instead of dwelling on it, I appologize for my transgression, ask forgiveness and here comes the next and the next. I repeat and pray blessings on those that I hurt. I ask the Holy Spirit to minister to them and heal them as He is healing me. As I was going over stone 2, yet another past crossed my path. Keep driving! go away! Same prayer for forgiveness and healing both for me, them and others involved. My thoughts while on stone 2--what a wasted life! Well, it got me this far and it's not over with, yet! A couple more--Dear Lord! Should I do them one by one or just group them all together? There's another! I want to leave but I know that I cannot push forward until the past is defeated. Do I just leave it there, in the past or should I face things one by one and overcome them with prayer? It almost becomes like a trophy case of sin! I know we're supposed to be pulling weeds but people, souls, are involved. Shouldn't I care about how my actions affected them? I don't want to put myself back into that pit that I'm trying to climb out of. Will praying for others help me get back on the path or will it drag me back down? Isn't that what we as christians are called to do? Help each other and bring glory to God or am I taking over the driver's seat and doing it my way, again? I need to pray! Last night I had all kinds of dreadful imaginations. I told them to go away and shut up! Because of past and current sin situations. does God hear me? I also have a problem with hearing what I want to hear and throwing out what hurts. All this time, I have had it in the back of my mind that I was/am a christian. I have been praying the sinner's prayer over and over. I don't feel any response when I pray. My pastor has quoted over and over that people call Jesus "Lord, Lord" but that their hearts are far from Him. It is hard to believe that I did the things that I did and can try to boldly approach the throne of grace to obtain mercy. I don't live that way, anymore--I have a whole new crop of sins growing. I have been so decieve by modern day psychology-- Well, you did this because somebody else did that. No, I did it because I wanted to, felt obligated or just out of habit and lifestyle Because of what I let myself believe and because of listening to wrong voices and grieving and quenching the Holy Spirit. Self, self, self! God does look on the heart and He knows everything about us. I guess that is how He can be so merciful. I pray that I can be used of God. I now question my fate. I know that I need to know without a doubt but I don't I only thought that I did. I know that God forgives but how many times? I sinned before conversion, I sinned after conversion. I have repented and rededicatd numerous times. I have so many issues pressing on me right now. There is another issue! I think that I have to solve it all myself!

Hello Babs

God bless you this day.

Time to take a few deep cleansing breaths. Deep breath in, hold 1 2 3, exhale. Deep breath in, hold 1 2 3, exhale. Deep breath in, hold 1 2 3, exhale.

Until new, godly habits are established, we do have a tendency to revert back to the old. The bombardment of oppressive thoughts first thing in the morning doesn't make for a very good wake-up, huh? Wonder who could be behind that??? Yes, the enemy -- combined with old habits "defaults" that we incorporated into our life. But, do not be dismayed, The Lord is helping you rid yourself of those. So let us walk by The Holy Spirit's guiding -- allowing Him to choose and prioritize our steps and actions, as opposed to just dancing like a marionette with satan pulling our strings.

Rebuke those oppressive thoughts, in the name of Jesus. OUT LOUD!!! Babs, you are a child of God! There is no need to and no reason for you to think on, or discuss things with the enemy. It is NOT his call.

Give yourself time to wake up. Greet The Lord! Put on some uplifting, spiritual music and Praise The Lord.

Seldom are the steps to our conversion simultaneous to helping others. Well, let me re-phrase that. You will help others, because God's call on your life does that very thing. However, initially, when learning to "become" a child of God, you have to stay focused on the tasks at hand..."becoming" through the strengthening of your faith. The Holy Spirit will choose the times and opportunities for you to be "doing" a work for Him, and He will endue you, or anoint you, with the His power to "do" so.

Matthew 22:31-32
And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat: But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren.

Enjoy this journey with The Lord. His call. He loves you.

Prayers continue to rise to our Lord, on your behalf. God's blessed will be done.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

I have a problem with patience, don't I? Since I have given over to the flesh so many times, and still do, (just in different areas, now) you'd think that I would change my wicked ways and seek God with all my being. I come across so many passages in other posts and private scripture readings that say "all those that are of the devil, murderers, liars, adulterers, (etc) these will not inherit the kingdom of heaven." I know that Jesus was the only perfect human to walk the face of the earth. I know that the devil wants to steal from me, kill me, destroy me. Jesus came so that I could have life and have it more abundantly. I rejected His lead so many times. I would return then leave, return then leave, over and over--stony, thorny ground.
Renew my mind, right? Change! Turn from my wicked ways! Deny the flesh, pick up my cross and follow Christ! Read the word and apply it. Habits! Swap the bad for good. Not exchange one sin for another! I am either forgiven or I'm not. I need to forgive all others as well if I expect God to forgive me. Now I can see why God wants me to go through this 2 more times. There is still lots of weeding to be done before my garden is cleaned and productive!

I awoke to a very strange sensation this morning. I felt like I was an aluminum can that had been crushed and the dents were being popped out of it one at a time to help it regain it's shape. I've noticed that I'm finding more in the steps the second time around that I did not see the first time around. I do so have a bad habit of seeing what I want to see and hearing what I want to hear. Not seeing what I need to see or hearing what I need to hear. I have a problem with the "whole message." There are some portions that really grip me. I guess these are the areas that I need work on. I also have other problems nagging at me that are hindering me from totally focusing on what I am trying to address here. I caught Joyce Meyer last night. She discussed depression and sadness. Their description of bi-polar disorder describes me! Could it be that the mind does this to itself?

Hi babs Really cool dream.

Those parts that you tend to avoid or ignore. Consider writing them out somewhere. Making a note. So you don't just let it go. It can not be repaired in the dark. Bring light to it.

Hi Babs neat dream God is always reshapeing us and poping out the dents to make us in his image keep up the good work you are doing great
getting into God word reshapes us in to his image to.your dream makes me think of this scripture

2 corinthians 3:18 But we all with open face holding as in a glass the glory of the Lord are changed into the same image from glory to glory as by the spirit of the Lord.

I pray in Jesus name you will do well in your healing journy as you take thease steps and beging to heal