i must admit
Posted: Sat Mar 27, 2010 5:39 am
GOD is faithful even when we are not. yesterday, the lust of my flesh was consuming me. the desire to do that which the bible calls an abomination seemed insurmountable. when i could do nothing else, i cried out to GOD in the shower, under my breath so my hubby couldn't hear, but desperately none the less. i gave in to that temptation, but at the front of my mind i continued to quietly pray for a way out. as my husband and i visited our once favorite hang outs for fulfillment of our sinful sensual desires, nothing happened. there were no players to participate in our game illicit sex and homosexuality. we made our way thru the day with one more opportunity to do it, but glory to GOD, my hubby was not able to go thru with it.
this may seem like a failure to some of you, but i see it as deliverance. HE held me up and made me stand. the desire has grown considerably less than it used to be, but in those times, all i can do is look to HIM to do that which i am not strong enough to do.
this may seem like a failure to some of you, but i see it as deliverance. HE held me up and made me stand. the desire has grown considerably less than it used to be, but in those times, all i can do is look to HIM to do that which i am not strong enough to do.