common problem/solution/bond
Posted: Sun Feb 07, 2010 10:52 amMy special thanx goes to Tam this morning for posting her thoughts in her thread , that as a result awoke an answer within me as to what had been going inside for a good part of a week and a half or two weeks now .
Actually the reason I'm putting this here is because I didn't think it fair for me to hog the thread .
I guess , the best way to understand what am I to write about , is to read Tam's today's post first , and keep in mind the first word in my chosen title , "common" , as in same , alike , something shared , as opposed to -run-of-the-mill common .
Early this morning I was awakened with "You will never be able to kill me you *.... " spouting out my mouth , next thing I know I was sitting up in my bed with this overwhelming (dunno) "fear"? . Turning the light on , I noticed as if a tornado had hit my bed , I mean even the pillow and sheets were on the floor , I went "Yep , a nightmare " . But what ? Why ? Who ? So I reach for the Sword , read a couple of verses , and went back to sleep .
Waking up again , cranked up C/O , while loading , the words "You'll never be able to kill me " rang through my head again , ok , C/O's loaded , scroll down here's Tam's post . BINGO ! Is our Lord Great or what ?
As a child , coming into the house , a great commotion was going on inside , the whole "clan" was there and no one was sitting down , some yelling , some crying , and with my peripherals I see two of my uncles and father around the gun cabinet checking their weapons , yep , a member of the family had been killed . Before my brother and sister could get in the door , I made a mad dash toward it and practically tackled them right back out , "Come on , let's go , get out of here !!"
That summer found me in the village , at my grandfather's , without my brother or sister , just me . Among the many festivals , one custom was that the village shares a portion of their harvest crops with each other , my grandfather's being wheat , I loaded two sacks if it on the donkey and waited for my grandfather . A passer by turned to me and said " That grandfather of yours sure must be out of his mind , taking that wheat to the one who killed one of his own" . Yep the person responsible , had taken refuge in the village ! My knees go out from under me .
Midway to their house we stop at a creek to water the animals and grab a snack , my grandfather says to me , " I don't know you too well you're still a kid , but I know your father , now where's the pistol ? Hand it over " . Clomp , into the river it went .
Sacks delivered . On the way back , Same spot at the creek/river . Grandfather , "In case you were wondering , I told him 'You may kill one of mine , but you never be able to kill me ' , that dog will never be able to come out of that house or eat wheat again , I just wanted to make sure he saw my eyes "
Not too long ago , I lost my daughter to murder . Fishing around for a computer camera and microphone , when people found out about the video conversation I was planning to arrange with the person responsible , everyone was saying I was I out my mind .
During the conversation I told this person , "You may have taken my daughter's life , but me you will never be able to kill , I'm offering you my forgiveness , but I will also let you know that you will never be able to enjoy it or be able to get out of this "house" again , I just wanted to see if you're even able to look me in the eye , you can't even look at the screen in front of you for you know who's there "
Oh , the verse in the Sword , "It's like pouring heaping hot coals on their heads"
In Christ , our Lord
Actually the reason I'm putting this here is because I didn't think it fair for me to hog the thread .
I guess , the best way to understand what am I to write about , is to read Tam's today's post first , and keep in mind the first word in my chosen title , "common" , as in same , alike , something shared , as opposed to -run-of-the-mill common .
Early this morning I was awakened with "You will never be able to kill me you *.... " spouting out my mouth , next thing I know I was sitting up in my bed with this overwhelming (dunno) "fear"? . Turning the light on , I noticed as if a tornado had hit my bed , I mean even the pillow and sheets were on the floor , I went "Yep , a nightmare " . But what ? Why ? Who ? So I reach for the Sword , read a couple of verses , and went back to sleep .
Waking up again , cranked up C/O , while loading , the words "You'll never be able to kill me " rang through my head again , ok , C/O's loaded , scroll down here's Tam's post . BINGO ! Is our Lord Great or what ?
As a child , coming into the house , a great commotion was going on inside , the whole "clan" was there and no one was sitting down , some yelling , some crying , and with my peripherals I see two of my uncles and father around the gun cabinet checking their weapons , yep , a member of the family had been killed . Before my brother and sister could get in the door , I made a mad dash toward it and practically tackled them right back out , "Come on , let's go , get out of here !!"
That summer found me in the village , at my grandfather's , without my brother or sister , just me . Among the many festivals , one custom was that the village shares a portion of their harvest crops with each other , my grandfather's being wheat , I loaded two sacks if it on the donkey and waited for my grandfather . A passer by turned to me and said " That grandfather of yours sure must be out of his mind , taking that wheat to the one who killed one of his own" . Yep the person responsible , had taken refuge in the village ! My knees go out from under me .
Midway to their house we stop at a creek to water the animals and grab a snack , my grandfather says to me , " I don't know you too well you're still a kid , but I know your father , now where's the pistol ? Hand it over " . Clomp , into the river it went .
Sacks delivered . On the way back , Same spot at the creek/river . Grandfather , "In case you were wondering , I told him 'You may kill one of mine , but you never be able to kill me ' , that dog will never be able to come out of that house or eat wheat again , I just wanted to make sure he saw my eyes "
Not too long ago , I lost my daughter to murder . Fishing around for a computer camera and microphone , when people found out about the video conversation I was planning to arrange with the person responsible , everyone was saying I was I out my mind .
During the conversation I told this person , "You may have taken my daughter's life , but me you will never be able to kill , I'm offering you my forgiveness , but I will also let you know that you will never be able to enjoy it or be able to get out of this "house" again , I just wanted to see if you're even able to look me in the eye , you can't even look at the screen in front of you for you know who's there "
Oh , the verse in the Sword , "It's like pouring heaping hot coals on their heads"
In Christ , our Lord
my precious friend. Jesus loves you...He really does...and so do I.
with you, vahn. God is a just and fair God. He does have a purpose in this..i know you know that. My heart goes out to you..not in pity for you, but in understanding.
