Stepping Stones
Posted: Sat Jan 23, 2010 12:37 pm
Last night as I laid down to go to sleep I just knew for sure I was going to have a good night sleep and wake up well rested. Not really The weird thing is, that although I was sleepless last night, it wasn't the same as my other sleepless nights I've had. I mean, I wasn't thinking terrible things, instead I was thinking about this new program and how excited I am about it
I am learning thru this program that I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and thinking about my past hurts. This has mentally, emotionally, and physically drained me. I am unemployed without income, my own flesh and blood only call on me whenever they need something, not to mention my so call friends. I have been cooped up in my house not wanting to do anything but sulk, eat, and drink. I have put on a lot of weight and my body aches. I look at myself in the mirror and hate what I see. I was feeling so miserable and hateful I was starting to believe my heart was hardening up because I couldn't cry. I believed that I lost GOD and couldn't get back because of all the bad stuff I was thinking in my head and feeling in my heart. But Praise the Lord not anymore Thank you Lord Jesus, thank you, thank you, thank you, and thank you. I am committing myself to finish this program and renewing my mind one day at a time as prescribed by the good Lord Jesus
I am learning thru this program that I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and thinking about my past hurts. This has mentally, emotionally, and physically drained me. I am unemployed without income, my own flesh and blood only call on me whenever they need something, not to mention my so call friends. I have been cooped up in my house not wanting to do anything but sulk, eat, and drink. I have put on a lot of weight and my body aches. I look at myself in the mirror and hate what I see. I was feeling so miserable and hateful I was starting to believe my heart was hardening up because I couldn't cry. I believed that I lost GOD and couldn't get back because of all the bad stuff I was thinking in my head and feeling in my heart. But Praise the Lord not anymore Thank you Lord Jesus, thank you, thank you, thank you, and thank you. I am committing myself to finish this program and renewing my mind one day at a time as prescribed by the good Lord Jesus