Hello Revanto
God bless you this day.
You said:
Today started out as a really good day. But then something happened and I don't even know what it was but now I'm back to where I was on Day 1. This is probably going to sound stupid, but I think the fact that the enemy knows I'm not going to do what he wants me to is making him try harder to get me to do it. Like I want to even more than I did before. It's killing me--which means I may not have to do it myself
This happens a lot with almost anything, when you think about it. Let's say someone decides to diet, it seems whatever the diet limits us from eating, are the very things we start craving. I remember being on a diet one time and it was so limiting that I couldn't even eat peas. No problem, I thought, but then one night my hubby was eating dinner and as he put a fork full of peas into his mouth, I actually found myself wanting to grab his fork and gobble those peas up.
Who'd a thunk? Peas, no less??? Odd, I tell ya, just odd.
Our flesh can be so fickle -- one minute wanting this, the next minute wanting that. But one cool thing to note, usually if we can distract our thoughts, the yearning or craving dissipates.
It's a process. Habits take a while to break, just as it took a while for us to develop them. The key is to introduce new habits, ones that are good and wholesome into our arsenal. Keep feeding yourself The Word, and talking with The Lord, and hanging out with other Christians.
You said:
Tomorrow will be better.
Keep up that hope.
Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
God bless you.
In His love,
Sister Mack