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Posted: Wed Jan 21, 2009 12:39 pmConfusion, as a result of too much head knowledge accumulated by reading,learing or trying to kinda force-feed mself w/ the Word, ultimately led me to yet to more confusion as of to why I started to get the feeling of my faith faltering or weakening (?) Which in turn led me yet to another "searching expedition" , By asking 4 Devine Guidance , I landed here @ OASIS , and as ALL and every, single one of God's Children who had been walking , guiding and leading me around from day 1 (which, by the way, I am forever indebted to in utmost gratitude) know the fact , or at least heard me say that the resullt of all that confusion was too much contradictory information I was recieving from one book 2 another so on & so forth.
Comes OASIS, thru the Grace of GOD and all His people here, to the rescue, with doing a greater job than I had ever expected or anticipated from anyone in my entire life ( I souldn't say entire -- I'm not dead yet !) by daily walking , talking & leading me to these steps, and by my following through them, felt like I was being catapulted into a some sort of fourth demension of exsistence, wanting to stay there, now I find mself feeling I'm losing grip once again. (trying too hard again, May b ?)
After hitting a sort of a snag yesterday, and sharing that with u here, the answer came to me through another friend of Jesus (by the way, any friend of Jesus is a friend of mine) who had been walking w/me throughout this journey since day 1 , that it's Ok not wanting to leave the 4th demension, but we still live here in the third ! & voila ! here I am writing my 10th stp. (MADE IT !!!)
Forging the alloy 'tween the talk yesterday and the 10th step 2 day came something like "keep your head up above the clouds but your feet firmly grounded here on earth (not the world) ". my opinon 2day is that He created the earth it was man who created the world, and that if I only change the way I pray the world (at least mine) will change all by itself.
Unanswered wordly prayers will stay that way -unanswered- or if he did answer it'll b NO !!! It was me who was saying "whatya mean no , havnt I trusted & relied on YOU by daily prayers ?" He said "what do I look like, a vending machine where u put a coin in and go where's my candy ?" No vahn you havn't been praying , you'd been "parroting" some prayers may b , and if u pray like a parrot u live like a parrot -in a Cage- and now that , with the help of my friends here @ OASIS who opened the cage door, came to realization that being there so long, never bothered to learn how to fly ! (why should I, where am I going ?)
Relying on the wings which I never learnt to use, I learnt something else, I dont need them !! If I only pray w/my heart instead of my head God will make me soar on HIS eagle wings. God is Love, Lve's in the heart, Only when the heart speaks that the HEART listens !!
I dont have the vocabulary to express my heartfelt gratitude sufficiantly to all my newfound family & friends here @ OASIS and the hereafter, to carry me to this point in my life.
May God bless you all and keep you !
Comes OASIS, thru the Grace of GOD and all His people here, to the rescue, with doing a greater job than I had ever expected or anticipated from anyone in my entire life ( I souldn't say entire -- I'm not dead yet !) by daily walking , talking & leading me to these steps, and by my following through them, felt like I was being catapulted into a some sort of fourth demension of exsistence, wanting to stay there, now I find mself feeling I'm losing grip once again. (trying too hard again, May b ?)
After hitting a sort of a snag yesterday, and sharing that with u here, the answer came to me through another friend of Jesus (by the way, any friend of Jesus is a friend of mine) who had been walking w/me throughout this journey since day 1 , that it's Ok not wanting to leave the 4th demension, but we still live here in the third ! & voila ! here I am writing my 10th stp. (MADE IT !!!)
Forging the alloy 'tween the talk yesterday and the 10th step 2 day came something like "keep your head up above the clouds but your feet firmly grounded here on earth (not the world) ". my opinon 2day is that He created the earth it was man who created the world, and that if I only change the way I pray the world (at least mine) will change all by itself.
Unanswered wordly prayers will stay that way -unanswered- or if he did answer it'll b NO !!! It was me who was saying "whatya mean no , havnt I trusted & relied on YOU by daily prayers ?" He said "what do I look like, a vending machine where u put a coin in and go where's my candy ?" No vahn you havn't been praying , you'd been "parroting" some prayers may b , and if u pray like a parrot u live like a parrot -in a Cage- and now that , with the help of my friends here @ OASIS who opened the cage door, came to realization that being there so long, never bothered to learn how to fly ! (why should I, where am I going ?)
Relying on the wings which I never learnt to use, I learnt something else, I dont need them !! If I only pray w/my heart instead of my head God will make me soar on HIS eagle wings. God is Love, Lve's in the heart, Only when the heart speaks that the HEART listens !!
I dont have the vocabulary to express my heartfelt gratitude sufficiantly to all my newfound family & friends here @ OASIS and the hereafter, to carry me to this point in my life.
May God bless you all and keep you !
