step 5
Posted: Tue Oct 21, 2008 10:10 am
As I was reviewing stepstone 5, something has been convictin me for sometime now.
I posted one time how the Lord took away desire to smoke cigs when I first got saved. That is the truth but as I wandered back into the pit of the world several yrs ago I began to smoke cigs again. I know I can quit cuz I would put them down and then pick them up again. Sighhhhhh
I know for a fact, this has NOT been pleasing to the Lord. And what makes me feel soooo much more convicted is that I have children and they even tell me of the dangers of smoking. And they are breathing this from me (oh help me Jesus). I know Jesus is angry with me over this. I have gone back to my vomit and need to STOP. I am angry with myself too cuz I had a really good chance to stop a few months ago when I visited my mom in Oklahoma. For one thing I flew out there and the airports had a no smoking policy on the way so I went without my cigs for hrs and then when I got to mom's I would not smoke in front of her. I have always been convicted of doing awful things infront of my mom for some reason but since I did not get rid of the pack I had hid in my purse, I went ahead and snuck out of her house and smoked outside where she couldn't see me....sighhhh. I had a good chance of quitting and I blew it!
I am sooooo desperate to put these nasty foul things down. They make me sick. I know for a fact that if I can just put them down for 3 days I will not want to do that again. I am around ppl that smoke and it is tempting to do it BUT the Lord doesn't want me excuses, He wants my obedience. I feel this has to be done soon. Please pray for strength for me to just pitch those things in the trash and never pick them up again.
Thank you so much and God Bless You All,
Tracy
I posted one time how the Lord took away desire to smoke cigs when I first got saved. That is the truth but as I wandered back into the pit of the world several yrs ago I began to smoke cigs again. I know I can quit cuz I would put them down and then pick them up again. Sighhhhhh
I know for a fact, this has NOT been pleasing to the Lord. And what makes me feel soooo much more convicted is that I have children and they even tell me of the dangers of smoking. And they are breathing this from me (oh help me Jesus). I know Jesus is angry with me over this. I have gone back to my vomit and need to STOP. I am angry with myself too cuz I had a really good chance to stop a few months ago when I visited my mom in Oklahoma. For one thing I flew out there and the airports had a no smoking policy on the way so I went without my cigs for hrs and then when I got to mom's I would not smoke in front of her. I have always been convicted of doing awful things infront of my mom for some reason but since I did not get rid of the pack I had hid in my purse, I went ahead and snuck out of her house and smoked outside where she couldn't see me....sighhhh. I had a good chance of quitting and I blew it!
I am sooooo desperate to put these nasty foul things down. They make me sick. I know for a fact that if I can just put them down for 3 days I will not want to do that again. I am around ppl that smoke and it is tempting to do it BUT the Lord doesn't want me excuses, He wants my obedience. I feel this has to be done soon. Please pray for strength for me to just pitch those things in the trash and never pick them up again.
Thank you so much and God Bless You All,
Tracy