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[vahn]

Oh what a difference one day with the Lord makes .

Yesterday I woke up to the tune of " I stand a better chance helping a Muslim in a coffee shop to accept our Lord's will for him than here " , and was about to call it in for good , when the thought came , that "event" took place not because of my plan but because of someone else's sharing or rather asking me to share (one talking to another) that God's will for this Muslim man was accomplished .
Well reluctantly , as my last post's topic suggests I clicked the site , put in my thoughts , next thing I know I noticed something . The replies I was got from a certain individual , though sincere and legitimate , it had - so I thought - absolutely nothing to do with me . Of course by that , at first , my reluctance to coming here was reinforced , I thought I found the reason , for by then , up to that point everything I was saying and doing was being either taken out of context or blown out of proportion , but as a direct result of a pm I received the day before that , I said to myself wait a minute this sounds familiar , so I went back a couple of more posts and replies , especially "starting point" (which actually started a whole new train of thought as to 'why am I being sent to cccc again ?) , I saw a pattern developing and I went " AH there it is ! ".
See , I was writing one thing , expecting "results" for my own puzzle , but getting a totaly different scene laid down in front me with them expecting "results" of their own , according to their own perspective .

Upon answering to the last reply by means of correction (at the same time hoping this one wont get blown out of proportion) the answer to my "problem" came to me as a lightning bolt !
Altough the issue of childhood experience(s) was at different circumstances than the reply's context but nevertheless , by trying to explain I found out that the answer as to why I was "sent" here to find out did indeed had to do with my past .

I was born to a very loving , Spirit oriented mother and environment , but unfortunately a war-torn country with heavy Christian persecutions and killings . But that did not phase my mother's faith to the point that she asked her father to take me and my twin brother to Jerusalem on a pilgrimage , for she could not do it herself because she was pregnant with my now younger brother . Upon returning , we thought we were "IT" , I mean we walked the same path as our Lord had walked on ... the works ! One day I asked my brother to go fishing with me , at my mother's warning not to go through a certain neighborhood , my brother was a bit scared at first but went anyway , on the way back having caught a fish of a considerable size (him) we were boasting and singing christian songs for if it weren't for our being so "privileged" that's why "we" caught that fish , then all of a sudden Bang ! I was laying across the street from where we were and my brother's body splattered all over the wall , gone ! The neighborhood we were in ? yeah you guessed it . We were attacked for one reason and one reason only - we were Christians .
The next time I saw my mother was 30 years later 10 years ago , during these 30 years I hated christianity with a passion and at the same time despised any non christian ESPECIALLY Muslims . Nine years later I landed at the Oasis Christianity . 10 months later I finally get the chance to tell the truth about myself but not without a cost , it cost me a very meaningful friendship . It was this very person that brought me to the point of opening up , to the point of boasting and singing Christian songs and ... Just like my brother . This was two months ago . So , any questions ?

Before it becomes a garden that spot is a land that God created , we're the ones that plot it out and say "this is the spot I want my garden to be" we choose were the garden is to be , and , like any other God's creations , the "weed"(s) had already taken root , but we disregard that , blinded by the beauty of the garden to be , we pull the weeds , we and up with nothing but what it looks to us , a pile of dirt , what we do next ? we add a soil of our own thinking this is the soil that my flowers like better , and you know what happens ? You might even end up with the most beautiful garden in the world , and some people are all too happy about that and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that thought , and they seem to be happily ever after . One Prob . Flowers whither and die . "Oh no problem there , get another bulb" .. and another and another , as long as the garden looks beautiful .
Change the soil ! and put it back to the way God planned it , forget about the flowers , they die , a mustard seed in the soil that was already prepared for you is where you'll end up with a tree big enough to provide a safe place for the birds to build their nests in and enough shade for you to sit and enjoy the garden under THAT tree that you put your flowers in .


In brotherhood of Christ

[vahn]

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Thanx for the reply LJD

Where in actuality , I shouldn't be thanking you because I didnt do anything , everyone knows about the Author of the Bible , but unfortunately , not that many consider the Bible as being the "Autobiography" of their life . The same Author that "wrote" Scripture also Author-ized my life and He doesn't change neither His "Story" nor my life . When He says , "This is what I made for , and this is what you're going to do" that exactly what is going to be done , because He also says "you do it now or you do it later , but do it you will , I have time , you dont ! " So, all thanx go to Him .

Us people see (judge ? ) each other according to the actions we take , but our Lord sees us through our heart . That is the greatest lesson my Lord had ever taught me (so far , cant wait for the next one) . throughout my whole experience(s) in life and through the experience I came to through being here , I learnt the greatest lesson , that forgiveness must be followed by action , we cant just say I forgive you and go on pretending that we did , unless we do as we say we did . Too well do I know of the fact that Muslim in the coffee shop was of any "coincidence" . Forget about goose-flesh , I'm getting ostrich-bumps everytime I think of it , you know what else ? I sometime wonder if it weren't our Lord Himself sitting across the table in that coffee shop . Because for the first time in all these years that I carried that ever-tormenting resentment , I sat right in front of my "nemesis" and without even knowing or planning forgave him and myself by looking in his heart instead of who he was , his heart was being tormented by what his beliefs were doing to this tormented heart for my beliefs , when the heart spoke , the heart listened and the "persons" were not there .

That is why when someone says make yourself vanish from the presence of another for their actions , I go "do you realy want to do that ? let me tell you a little "Story SomeOne wrote about me "

[momof3]

Vahn, my brother, i just wanted you to know that I am praying for you and standing with you as you take these steps, my friend. Im praying the Lord will continue to show you what He has willed for your life. You are seeing that nothing happens by accident...and He does in fact, have a will for your life. Too often we think that we are our own. We arent. Every breath we take is ordered by Him Who knows the purpose behind why He created us. Keep going, my friend.

In Jesus,
luv momo