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[vahn]

I was going to put down step 1 as a title, but I'd be lying .

I was reluctant, at first, when a friend suggested that I'd go through CCCC once again , but here I am, and here's the reason.

Remembering the first time going thru it , and how much good came out of it , by following suggestions (someone else's, that is) .

You know what ? I still feel reluctant . But I promised I would start (but I didnt say when, Ha !)

I know deep inside God is speaking thru this person , for I had made it a habit to pray prior to any undertaking , and listen to His voice in other people , espacially the ones that are on the plane as I . However, the reason for my coming back here is way too painful for me to open up and share w/anyone else .
Even tho I agree 100% with my friend's suggestion , and also that is exactly what I usually suggest to my newbies, I still find it hard to go ahead and jump.
When I was told that I was running from the issue, it just made me wanting to drop everything and head to the nearest place I can be alone witth God and thank Him at loud.

I didnt realize it !. But then again how could I ? Too wrapped up with all this .... I dont even know what to call it anymore.

I just feel like I'm babbling on , I dont think I'm ready for this , but I promised to my friend and to God , to give it a shot , well , here, bang-bang . Hopefully , no , most assuradly, with God's Grace and Power , along with OASIS and all the friends I had made here , I know I can pull it off. For , deep inside I know God doesn't want me to hurt any more than is necessary , pain is inevitable , but suffering is optional .

It's just that, It is my feeling about the issue is , something's are just better left alone for now.

Here's another promise I make for all to read and hold me accountable , should I fail to do so , I will start the steps by Tuesday.

[mlg]

Vahn, I'm so glad to see you are finally willing to give the counseling steps a try again. Now a little jab my friend...your making excuses. Excuses for why you don't want to do the steps. You can't ever truly grow to where God wants you to be with excuses. If things were so easy my friend, we would never need to turn to God. No this journey will not be easy...I'm not going to lie to you and tell you it will be. In fact there are going to be some really tough moments, But you can't let that be your reason for just running away. What if all the disciples had decided to run away when Jesus was killed on the cross and to never come back and see him rise from the dead? We'd all be in serious trouble, cuz there wouldn't have been anyone to continue sharing His love and forgiveness. We can't run and hide...even when it seems easier. We have to get up and move forward. The steps will help you do this...and I know you know this even through all the pain.

My prayers are with you vahn.

luv ya my friend

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don't know what your issues are but you can keep hiding and hiding will just get easier and easier till its impossible to live with yourself anymore...I ain't preaching...this is what I did for years till the pain and hate in me had taken me to the brink...and when I looked for someone I could talk to incognito there was no one...finally I cried to Jesus, I cannot live anymore, and that night He brought me here...I won't run anymore, I don't care how much it breaks me this is where I need to be and where you need to be...you know that...don't be afraid of opening up to the Lord or to others here...everyone is here to help, I think you know that too...with the love of Christ