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[chbalco]

So today is day 4 of my 14 day commitment to god..And It has actually went very well..the chest pains and the knot in my stomach have eased considerably..Still there occasionally..But much less intense then has been the case for the last 9 days..So the prayers are working..Please Keep them Coming

I would like to mention to those who read my day 3 journal entry...I followed through with my commitment to God to fast all day yesterday so that he would show me his will for my life..(I did wake up at 1157 last night and ate a tomato sandwich at 1159...But I think Jesus was ok with the 1 minute before midnight..He seen my heart and intentions and faith were pure..And He Seen I was REALLY Hungry...)..As I was cleaning my Kids room today..I was putting things away in the closet and noticed a book on the top shelf...and Low and behold it was "The purpose driven life by Rick Warren" ....WOW..if that isnt proof that Jesus is in me and knows how motivated I am to serve him and change my life..Then I have no idea what a sign from god is...I will begin to read and apply it to my life as soon as I have completed the next 10 days of this course.

So today's course is about Forgiveness..and as I was reading..I began to underline points that I wanted to refresh on..and I came across Several of them..But 2 things that stuck out the most.. The first is the Guilt that I am feeling is Self Pity..Jesus has already forgiven me and I am the one who is holding on to the feeling of guilt because I feel if I suffer long and hard for all of this..then It is going to best for me(once again..My Will..NOT Jesus's)...Well Yes and NO it would be..Yes I do deserve to suffer and yes Jesus is using it to help mold me into the man that he wants me to be..but NO because He has already forgiven me for my sins and wants me to move forward and learn from the pain...not dwell on it..So I am choosing to let the guilt go and Keep looking forward and upwards to Jesus..He knows exactly what he is doing with me

The second was if someone hasn't forgiven you for something you have done to them..Seek out forgiveness from them not for yourself but so you may free them from the invisible net of Hurt that I have placed on them...I instantly thought of my ex wife and How badly I have hurt her through all of the things I have done and said to her while we were together and after the divorce 3 years ago...It hit me...this is exactly why she still doesn't want to speak to me or look at me when we pickup/drop off our other 2 children..and has nothing nice to say to me or about me...I have given her no reason for that for a very long time..So asked Jeuss to guide me and prepare a text message to her..detailing my recent re dedication to the lord and an acknowledgment of the things that I did to her in the past ( and I was specific about my down falls with her)and asked her for forgiveness..not for my sake but for her sake so that she can finally have some closure in her heart and obtain the same blessings from god that I am now receiving..I closed with I am saying a prayer to God for him to open your heart and accept this message as a sincere gesture from the renewed spirit that Jesus has replaced the Devil filled sins of the flesh self seeking person (I don't even dare call what I used to be a man) I was and ended with I am truly sorry.

Now she did not respond to the text..But that is very normal..She never really responds to any text I ever send..and refuses to talk to me on the phone..But I know without a doubt..she received that message and when God opens her heart to it..It will begin the healing process for her

Overall Today really has been a much better day..I have all 3 of my kids here at home with me..and they are so awesome..we have all been praising the miracle of Jesus and telling Jesus how much we love him and enjoying christian music and dancing..Last night we restarted our childrens Bible study at bedtime and We are All Loving it so much..We have always said our bedtime prayers..But now we are having a special Thank You Jesus for our personal Blessings Prayer at bedtime where we each get our own time to say an open prayer to Jesus..and it is amazing to see jesus has already been in my beautiful Babies hearts for a longtime..they just needed Daddy to Let them know its ok to publicly profess our love for Jesus.

I have a Dating profile setup on a popular site that I havent been using lately for obvious reasons..Well Today I revamped it to show my dedication to the lord...I added amongst other things an invitation for people to message me and I would gladly lead them in a word of prayer for their salvation or to just say the following prayer of salvation and Wrote out a prayer and a congradulations and a welcome to our family that will never die but live forever in eternal paradise together...I also wrote a short line about them needing to be careful and be vigilent about their decison to accept jesus as the savior, Because they just made SATAN mad by turning their backs on him and following chirst..and he will try to do ANYTHING TO BRING US DOWN and to never question that they were truly saved.....and I encouraged them to find a good church and seek out a christian community forum such as I did..This has truly been a blessing for me and This is exactly what Jesus had planned for me all along

Thank you all so Much For ALL of your Prayers and words of encouragment..Cant wait till tomorrow Day 5...And another amazing day serving Jesus

CHAD Aka Jesus Freak/chbalco

[Ruthk34]

Very well done