Christianity Oasis Forum

[Diane]

Dear Holy Spirit,
I have cried out to you like psalm 22 that I am crying by day and night but I have no rest I have no answer. I a but a worm and not a woman, trouble is near. Holy Spirit I know you hear my cries, and I know you see my tears and begging you to HELP ME!!! I am so worried about my sons and their lives. I do not know how to help them, how to teach them, how to guide them in life except through you but will they hear? I am so troubled by their experiences at school. I homeschooled them and tried to implant in them all about you and your power and love. I was not a good example. I fought and fight and argue with their father. He was wounded so badly as a child in his severly alcoholic home that he is not able to be a good dad to our boys. He lacks empathy and interest in teaching the boys anything. I have it all upon me it seems and I do not know how to do this I cant figure it out. I have made decisions and I dont know if they are right or what next or anything I aM SO LOST AND i DO NOT HAVE FIRENDS TO TURN TO THAT CAN relate to parenting and athletics and how my son Peter is so berated by the coach. You know and saw Peter make 4 errors in the game last night. You saw his face and heard the wrath of the coach to all the players. HOLY SPIRIT intervene in the lives of these young impressionable boys. What are we doing? What do I do? Peter and Joseph do not have the friend connections at the school. They are new they are not from the school neighborhood and they need friends and supportive people in their lives and I feel so weak at times and overwhelmed and I cant figure out how to do all of this what do I do? There are so many problems and I dont see any good alternativeas. Peter has dreamt of this sport since he was four and now he is playing and his confidence and nervousness and mistakes are at an all time high. What Lord What LOrd should we do ??? Should I get Peter psychological help should I ??? How can I help him in life when I feel that perhaps I am the one that has caused him to be insecure? Joseph is wanting friends to interact with and he told me that he does not get invited to anything. Are my sons that different and unacceptable as friends? Are they too nice, too shy, too reserved??? What can I do I have tried everything I know by inviting kids, activiites, special coaches for Peters weaknesses, What can I do I dont know what to do and my heart is troubled for them. My husband will not listen to my concerns, he will not encourage the boys unless I ask him too. He will not help with this area. He will not because he doesnt even know how. He has no empathy!!!!!!!!!! You tell us to ask and seek and knock and that is what I am doing. I am asking you LOrd most HIgh Holy Spirit to teach my sons your ways and protect them from attacks against their self worth. Let them know they are loved by the Almighty and give them courage and strength and boldness to live this hard life and not cave finto the deceitful lies of so called friends, coaches, or any other thing that would crush their spririt HOLY SPIRIT please give them knowledge wisdon and revelation. Give them friends that believe in YOU>> It is so hard here it is so hard to see a path for my sons. The rest of our family is not local. We have no support we are isolated in our lives. we dont interact at church. we are winging it ourselves. You promise that you will give us rest. PPPPLLLLEEEAAASSEEE HELP!!!

[Dora]

Hello Diane I hope you dont mind me sharing some of my thoughts that came as I was reading your journal to the Holy Spirit.

What a terrific out pouring of your heart to our Lord and Savior. He does hear and he does care. I was touched by your love for your children. It reminded me of how I would pray for hours in tears over my children and their salvation. Things had to happen to them that I couldn't protect them from and as I mom i wanted so badly to protect them from all harm. I prayed and prayed over these things. Just as you are. God told me in the midst of one of my prayers that my children would be great leaders because of my prayer. They are teens, and are indeed leaders in the midst of peers who are choosing unhealthy activities they are choosing God. Standing up to deliver the gospel in a public class room when what is being taught is against their beliefs. Take comfort in this because I was where you were, in some aspects, and I now see how the hand of God was busy with in the lives of my children. Continue to pray for Godly friends for your children, but understand this could be a time He is calling your child to seek Him. Those friends will only be there a short time in their lives, probably. But God will be there forever. The sports will fade away, but they will always be a starter on Gods team if they choose.

Have you considered reading through the book by Storm O'Martin called The Power Of A Prayer Mother? Also The Power Of A Praying Spouse is a good one I recommend. Effective prayer can move mountains.

I pray my words bring encouragement from one mother to another. God has heard your cries. I believe now He is seeking your trust in Him.

Build up your men (husband and sons) with truck loads of positive words of praise. You may be surprised to find your spouses view of himself to be swaying so low that he doesn't feel he has anything to give to his boys. Thus the distance. I want to encourage you to love him unconditionally. When you reach him, you will reach them.

Also sis, my spouse didn't want me to home school, when I longed to home school so to protect my kids. My oldest is graduating this year and over the years they would beg me to home school them. Broke my heart! When they came home from school and teachers or other kids hurt them I wanted to yank them out of school and teach them in the safety of our home. But we were not in agreement, my spouse and I. I felt it was much more important to my kids emotional health to see despite our disagreement (their dad and I) we stood as one. My kids know I don't agree with public schooling. But that I gave in, knowing they would experience things I wanted to protect them from because a woman stands beside her man. When my kids look at their dad and I they become strong. They know those who are placing their foundation won't waver, despite differences. Sure we have issues and troubles. Um....as a daughter of an abusive alcoholic I have huge issues! But they (my kids) can rest in knowing, no matter what, we will still be standing in unison under the Father. I think that can give kids such a huge huge huge comfort these days when the rest of the world is swaying and uncertain.

I hope in my sharing you can glean out some things that will help you along in your walk. If nothing else, know that God loves you and does hear your prayers.

Hope to get to know you better. I think you must be an amazing woman. You have a huge heart and concern for your family and I'm glad we're sisters through our belief in Christ Jesus. Love ya.

[Diane]

Thank you Hope Blossom. I read your amazing story. Thank you for understanding and responding to me. I have felt so alone and my feelings are not always the truth. God is here, the Holy Spirit must have guided me to this site. Never in my life did it occur to me to google Christian Support groups. I was led here. I am uplifted by your words. I will be able to make it to my sons schools and pick them up right now with a grateful smile. I needed to hear to speak positive to them and my husband. I called him to tell him I love him but couldnt get through. I must leave to pick them up now and I am so encouraged to hear from you. I will re-read your writing when I return. I cant thank you enough. It means so much to me to know someone else out there.
Love,
Denyse Diane

[Dora]

awwww Happy tears. Glad you were encouraged.