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I cannot believe my friend is gone,
With only a note to get me through.
How I wish now he was here,
To comfort me and dry my tears.
What hurts the most is inside I knew,
Such pain he did hide so deep inside
Every day I watched him cry rivers of tears,
None did fall, but inside I knew they flowed.
It hurts me so now to know he is gone,
But what hurts the most is he chose to leave.

Wonder do I where the pain did come,
That made Him take is life from this world?
How could he take my best friend away,
And leave me in this world with no one near?
Was it something I did or something I said,
Or did I not act or speak when I should?
What could have I done to help him live,
And not end the life he had for this brief time.
Everyone tells me his leaving is not my fault,
But my heart tells me this cannot be true.

Something there must be I could have done,
To save my friend from the thoughts he had.
What they were now never will I know,
For never did he share the secrets of his heart.
He kept them locked so deep down inside,
So no one could find them or know what they were.
Never will I forget the words I heard that day,
In my mind forever shall they live...
"So sorry am I this news you to give,
But your friend has died and passed away.

He said goodbye while all alone in the world,
Wish do I for just one moment with him to spend.
Just one more chance to say "I love you",
One more time to hold him tight to myself.
How could he say he loves me so much,
Then in that brief moment take his own life?
My heart no longer shall be complete,
Now it is broken with no way to make whole.
In the place that was his now a void does live,
There once was him but now no more is he.

My heart now scared with no means to heal,
For my friend from this world has gone.
Never again shall upon his smiling face I gaze,
No more laughs on those long nights will we share.
Always a question my mind will be asked of my heart,
What more could I have done to save my friend so dear?
Why I ask of the Lord who sits enthroned above,
Did my friend you allow such pain to feel?
From the break in my heart tears forevermore shall flow,
For never again will my arms wrap my friend so tight.

James Bloor 2010

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Such strong words my friend...suicide hurts many...it's a choice that can not be changed...thank you for sharing this morning.

luv ya semper