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[Guest]

I have been away for a while,but in the time that I have been gone a few things have happened in my life. God has really been working on me and helping me over come some HUGE battles. one of the things is my anger issues are getting better, I am two months sober and I have been blessed with a new wife. I also find myself wanting more of God and less of me. Every now and then I wake up in the morning feeling like I don't want to read my bible or pray sometimes it happens at night, but I have this tug that pulls at my heart telling me not to give into those feelings. You see, before I would give into those feelings and that is when I seem to fall back into my old self, and then away from God I go. I finally gave every thing to God. Before I tried to keep a few things but I learned that if I am to walk with God and help plant seeds then I must surrender all to him. I want to live a life that others will notice and say, "wow, that man looks happy I wonder what hes' got that I don't". I want to be a good example of what God can do. After I was baptized last Nov. I still struggled with drinking. I thought that if I drank once in a while every thing would be ok but it wasn't. Then I happen to be watching a t.v. program on the Christian channel and they were talking about baptism and what it meant to be baptized. I started hurting real bad. I, once again, was brought to my knees. I was in tears and full of shame. I figured that was it no more drinking but latter on I once again had a drink. This was the week before Easter. The next day I once again felt worthless and guilty. this time I told God he could have compleat control.To help me with my acountability I told my family about what was going on in my life and the fact that I was a reborn christian and I no longer wanted anything to with drinking. So you see now I really have to watch how I live and act if I want others in my life to accept Jesus as their personal saviour. I have never felt this way before. I never had this much desire to be in his presence like I do now. I am still a work in progress but I know that as long as God is in control I will be ok. Every morning I have to pick up my cross and give God complete control. And every night I thank him. God Bless

[Dora]

That's amazing!

I've been struggling with not wanting to read the bible lately myself. Your post has given me strength to fight these feelings inside.

I don't have a tug, just a void where once was fire. I've been praying he draws me to His word once again.

[lizzie]

I am still a work in progress but I know that as long as God is in control I will be ok. Every morning I have to pick up my cross and give God complete control. And every night I thank him.

Amen. I miss u brother blue but I know God has you in the palm of His hand and no one can snatch you out of it. Stay in Him. GB you and yours.