Suicide or Jesus? I was Depressed
Posted: Tue May 15, 2012 1:39 pmNo one talks to her, she feels so alone
Shes in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she cant handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life
Each day she goes on is a day that she's brave,
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way,
Each moment of courage her own life she saves when she throws the pills out, a hero is made
This is from the song Hero by Superchick. I can say honestly this used to be me. I was 9 years old, 9! What is happening to kids these days? I used to try to cut and write that, but my nails weren't sharp enough. So I wrote dark poems about death and every now and then cut my arms. This went on until I was 13. I kept this dark and deadly secret to myself for 4 years, even to this day, my parents don't know and Kaylee hardly knows anything. I forced a smile and made it look real. I used to fantasize about suicide and one time, I was sleepwalking and woke up with a knife near my throat. This was almost perfect! In the middle of the night, in the home I loved, I almost slit my throat! It was so hard to put the knife back! This was when I was 12 and into Wicca. I never told anyone until now. This song, Hero, is giving me some strength to write this, but not enough, God has helped. I felt so alone and no one could console me. Soon later I went to church camp and ganed my confindence back and my relationship with God suddenly rocketed forward! Now I help people attempting suicide. Thanks for reading, I can't go on with this writing because it is still to hard!
Shes in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she cant handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life
Each day she goes on is a day that she's brave,
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way,
Each moment of courage her own life she saves when she throws the pills out, a hero is made
This is from the song Hero by Superchick. I can say honestly this used to be me. I was 9 years old, 9! What is happening to kids these days? I used to try to cut and write that, but my nails weren't sharp enough. So I wrote dark poems about death and every now and then cut my arms. This went on until I was 13. I kept this dark and deadly secret to myself for 4 years, even to this day, my parents don't know and Kaylee hardly knows anything. I forced a smile and made it look real. I used to fantasize about suicide and one time, I was sleepwalking and woke up with a knife near my throat. This was almost perfect! In the middle of the night, in the home I loved, I almost slit my throat! It was so hard to put the knife back! This was when I was 12 and into Wicca. I never told anyone until now. This song, Hero, is giving me some strength to write this, but not enough, God has helped. I felt so alone and no one could console me. Soon later I went to church camp and ganed my confindence back and my relationship with God suddenly rocketed forward! Now I help people attempting suicide. Thanks for reading, I can't go on with this writing because it is still to hard!
I am sooooooo glad you found God when you did - He is amazing.
I am so glad you were able to share this with us. Your testimony can truely be uplifting to others. I am also glad that you are able to bless others with your experience. Keep up the good work I am so proud of you. 
Some say in heaven we will be like the angels. We will fight the battles. God needs strong and brave angels to war against the enemy for Him. I'm up for it, I bet you are too. 
Brave child. Even if we are not like the angels I am certain there is a mission for us where strength and bravery is needed. Let's do it!