Hurting Like Crazy...
Posted: Wed Aug 29, 2012 12:34 pmLately, I keep feeling like God is telling me that a part of my life is about to change.....I am avoiding details in case God wants to use any of you as confirmation or some other way......
At first I really believed it was God telling me this....so I don't remember questioning it for a while.....Then I was like, wait.....How, why, when, where, God? Then I started wondering if it was even from God, but then I wasn't sure why I would think what I was thinking....then the last few days it has become VERY clear why I thought the way I did.....Right now I'm about 50/50--it could be me wanting this, or it could be God.....However I am leaning towards it being God that wants this, and therefore I want it to...
At this point, I am trying to trust God....I know the what---I know the where----but I haven't yet been able to discern if the where is me or God either.....if it is God, for both the what and the where I have no idea, when, how, why-----How will this get done....When will this happen.....
See....if there was no God, or if I wasn't worried about making sure this situation is of God....I would be set in my ways right now. I would know exactly where, I would make a how and a when, and I'd figure out the why once it happened (hopefully)....I can see how if what I am feeling is correct, how God can use me powefully, and I desire that....I feel ready or VERY close to ready to move forward in love and trust in God....I want to grow in Him, I want to receive healing from Him, I want to be used by Him.....I want my entire life to revolve around Him....If God did this, I would know it was God, no doubts.....and it would be beautiful and amazing....
This situation involves more than just myself.....I realize that not everyone will agree with decisions I make, or even the decisions God is asking us to make, or fill.....But I am praying for peace, understanding, love, open doors, provided needs, confirmation, an open heart, and a continued willingness to listen to God and where He says go, I'll go.....I love you Lord, please give me your wisdom, strength, and anything I need until Your will here is revealed...amen....
Check out this song.....Jesus Culture-- Where You Go I Go http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vs1XRyIvEfU
At first I really believed it was God telling me this....so I don't remember questioning it for a while.....Then I was like, wait.....How, why, when, where, God? Then I started wondering if it was even from God, but then I wasn't sure why I would think what I was thinking....then the last few days it has become VERY clear why I thought the way I did.....Right now I'm about 50/50--it could be me wanting this, or it could be God.....However I am leaning towards it being God that wants this, and therefore I want it to...
At this point, I am trying to trust God....I know the what---I know the where----but I haven't yet been able to discern if the where is me or God either.....if it is God, for both the what and the where I have no idea, when, how, why-----How will this get done....When will this happen.....
See....if there was no God, or if I wasn't worried about making sure this situation is of God....I would be set in my ways right now. I would know exactly where, I would make a how and a when, and I'd figure out the why once it happened (hopefully)....I can see how if what I am feeling is correct, how God can use me powefully, and I desire that....I feel ready or VERY close to ready to move forward in love and trust in God....I want to grow in Him, I want to receive healing from Him, I want to be used by Him.....I want my entire life to revolve around Him....If God did this, I would know it was God, no doubts.....and it would be beautiful and amazing....
This situation involves more than just myself.....I realize that not everyone will agree with decisions I make, or even the decisions God is asking us to make, or fill.....But I am praying for peace, understanding, love, open doors, provided needs, confirmation, an open heart, and a continued willingness to listen to God and where He says go, I'll go.....I love you Lord, please give me your wisdom, strength, and anything I need until Your will here is revealed...amen....
Check out this song.....Jesus Culture-- Where You Go I Go http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vs1XRyIvEfU
