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[*]I have delt with so much in my life. But it seems that it is all coming out now. I haove so much built up anger and hate. I have nothing to offer my family. I am a cutter and balimic and have been fighting off my urges for years now. I was an active cutter five years ago and have been fighting not to here lately. I just feel worthless. I am on a high dosage of an anti depressant . I feel like Ny family would be better off without me and have thought about just leaving and never coming back. I don't know where or what to do...bb

Dear Abigail,
I'm sorry you are going through such trials. Jesus says that we WILL have troubles. He didn't say that we might have troubles! He also said He will be there when you walk through the waters and the flames.

If you walk away from your family, you will leave a hole where you once were. Do you want to do that to them? The Bible says that the sins of the fathers continue for many generations. However, it takes just one person to say that they want to break that cycle and start life with God as the one in charge. Are you willing to be that person? You don't have to do it alone. There are many who will stand by you and of course, your Father in heaven is waiting to lift you out of the miry clay and out you on solid ground.

You can do it! Will you?

~K

Amen!
Be careful of the root cause of self-pity.
I have /am guilty of this.
Thanks for sharing!

Real

Its hard for me... between the years of abuse, feeling unloved, rape, teenage pregnancy that resulted in a miscarriage of twin daughters due to being beaten by the man who "loved" me. I feel like blessed things have been taken away from me and I can never get them back.

God has a plan for you. Seek His will and you will have PEACE.
I am sorry about your past, but we sometimes have to accept what has happened and move forward.
This is what I FINALLY did after many years of suffering.

GBU


Real

no you are not worthless abigail.god wants to take your arms and heal them he wants to heal your broken heart.he wants to touch every area and mend it with his love.come to me my child and let me hold you i am your father and will never let you go.i love you so much that the seas can not part us. sometimes god uses medicine to help us.i too take an antidepressant.
you need to express your anger to a trusted person and to god but it's up to you.anger is a dangerous emotion and unrighteous anger comes from the devil.satan orchistrates events to upset you.don't let him win theirs power in forgiveness.like what joyce meyer says don't wait til' you feel like forgiving.your angry at allot of things.maybe writing down all that your angry at will help,getting the inside out.