Hi tracyyundt,
Welcome to Christianity Oasis! It is awesome that you have been led here. You shared that you feel the need to do whatever it takes to gain the attention of others. Often this can happen when one is unhappy in their life. They seek attention of others because it is a temporary happiness to be "noticed". Unfortunately that happiness being temporary means that you will do whatever it takes to gain that "happy" feeling again. True happiness and Joy is find in Jesus....and He is willing to give you all the time and attention you need whenever you need it. He wants to become your best friend and He wants to offer you the happiness that never leaves in trusting in Him.
There is a Christian Counseling program here that I believe would be a great help to you. Check out this link:
http://www.christianityoasis.com/CCCC/Forum.htmWelcome again to the Oasis! My prayer is that you find Him that you truly seek.
Take care