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so, i was DETERMINED to start off the new year with no porn and other bad things.. little did i know how hard it would be. i HATE having these addictions.. i'd rather them just go away. but, like everyone knows, they won't. they fester at you and break you down till you feel worthless. or that's how it is with me.

what does that "old habits die hard" saying mean anyways? i heard it used the other day and i'd like to know.

also, i need to be in a relationship with my Daddy and i'm not sure how to re-connect with him properly if someone can help me.. that'd be great. i was at church this morning and all i could think about was how much i missed having my Daddy with me throughout my day.. keeping some of my problems away. we read Judges 10 in church and the part where it said that the people put other god's before God, and then they became miserable because God turned his face away from them. thats how i feel... i feel as if i have let porn control my every thought. every time i get on my computer, i am faced with the choice of do i look at it, or do i not. often, i choose the look at it. one night, i got off because i didnt wanna fail God and so i was just going to go to sleep. stupid enemy wouldn't let me sleep.. it's like i heard him saying "i'll let you sleep if you do it". i ignored it.. i tried sleeping.. but after about 4 hours of tossing and turning, i just gave up.. then i cried. i hate that. i hate failing. i really do.

well, this was a load off my chest.

thanks.



oh yeah!!!! if someone could please let me know what the best book of the bible is to start off with, please do.. thanks!



-Bailey

Baily, I know how you feel about this porn thing. I too am still strugleing with the temptations and giveing into them. I haven't been wrighting much on here because of the shame I felt. I don't understand why this porn thing has to be so difficult to get rid of. There is some things we can do to block those sites but you should have someone set it up for you and not tell you the pass word. I tried that aproach after my computer crashed from looking at porn but I latter found myself unlocking the sites. I think it comes down to self control but that hasn't been easy either. Just don't give up and don't stop praying about it.

It sure would be nice if internet providers would keep that stuff of the net. I never did understand why thay would allow that junk to begin with.

Keep running the race and remember that God loves you.
Luv in Christ
B.B.B.

Hi ya bailey and Blue, wavey hand smiley

I find myself with the same struggles from time to time too. Porn comes in literature and pics, too. I've often wondered why no one will talk about the literature as much as the pics. Ummmm, sorry bout the tangent.

Please don't feel ashamed or anything like that. You can always pm me or we can hold each other accountable here in sos. I think it would help. I used to have girlfriends that I could call everyday for accountability and prayer. It really helped alot. I guess we've gone our separate ways or something. It's hard right now. Oh well, what can ya do, right?

Soooo, let me know whatcha think.

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hey yall.. so, i think yalls ideas are great!!! id love to have someone be able to lock those sites away for forever.. but, the thing is.. i can't tell anyone.. i haven't told anyone..

Hi Bailey,

Sorry I almost forgot. I usually start with my concordance and a journal. I out what's happening and that is my way of praying to God. My journal startes with Dear Lord. Then I write what is on my heart. My journal is for me and helps me calm down, re-focus and reset priorities, goals, etc.


You'll notice that I have had my own sets of struggles as of recent. I wasn't able to journal for a while. That is a very very long story though. I doubt that I will share the story here.

Anywhoosie I started journalling in 1988 and it has helped me tremendously. I've watched God help my different addictions, my parenting, my work performance and the list goes on from 1988 to date. Can't possibly list everything so you get the picture. It's a way to pull you into to Christ. A place where you can be blatantly honest.

You can try the 14 day journal thing here. I know this is highly recommended and it seems to be helping many people. I am using this myself for right now because, I can't seem to identify scripture to fit my situation nor can I figure out how to focus my growth.

As such I would have to recommend the same for you at this point.

HOWEVER, I have also had a great time looking up scripture in my concordance that applies to my heart and going from there. For example, there was a season, when I didn't understand the women in the Bible and how God saw women in the Bible. I was very happily surprised to see how God treated women in the old testament and the new testament. I was glad that the experience was my own and Gods and didn't come from anyone else.

About the porn thing, that has been a long term prob for me. you're honestly not alone. Eventually God did replace it with other things which were more interesting actually. Who knew???? I certainly wouldn't have ever guessed that one, but alas He did. I have other hobbies which I prefer more than the porn. That said, I still have that challenge and probably always will. I think most people do and just don't say anything.

I've found that when I'm drawn that way, my soul is hurting from something else. ***hugs my friend*** no condemnation, okay? Just keep moving forward. You'll make it. We all will but it doesn't happen without hard work, so join in and work with all of us. you're not alone.

skrubby,
that's good advice. it really is.

oh, i SO know how you feel. it's actually nice to know that there are other girls out there struggling with pornography. Most don't admit it... and most recovery programs are directed at men. Sorry just venting there. But I'll admit it. I struggle with pornography. And I understand the sitting and fighting with yourself before you visit the sites. I just always give in, it's like I don't know how to fight. And feeling like God is so distant, and you want him to come and help and yet you want to view the pornography so you kind of push him away. You probably already know you're not alone here but just reinforcing that!

As for books of the Bible, my favorite are the Psalms. There are so many heartfelt instances of David crying out to God to save and heal him, I think it is amazing. Also, Hosea is a really great story of God's forgiveness and acceptance of those who have committed spiritual "adultery." My favorite passage from that book is in Hosea 14...

Return, O Israel, to the Lord your God. Your sins have been your downfall.
Take words with you and return to the Lord.
Say to him: "Forgive all our sins and receive us graciously, that we may offer the fruit of our lips."
Assyria cannot save us; we will not mount war-horses.
We will never again say 'Our gods' to what our own hands have made, for in you the fatherless find compassion."
I will heal their waywardness and love them freely, for my anger has turned away from them.