my story
Posted: Sat Dec 19, 2009 5:28 pm
Ok i was told could post on here what has happened to me and that no one will place judgment...this is really hard for me so if i quit in the middle thats why
On Sep. 30,2006 i got my belly botton pierced and not to many hours after that i was raped.
Im sorry i can't seen to add alot more than that now but i believe that my biggest problem is that i can't seem to take my belly ring out. I feel like keeping it in reminds me that no matter the situation that i will never loose that much control again.
I know that the control is in gods hands, but i know that i NEVER want to go threw that again and to me its hard. Hard that i try to give him the control and i know i take it back every time but i thinks its because im afraid that i will run into that man again.
I seen the man a little while ago and i froze all i could think was he was going to do it to me again. I have forgaven him but i don't feel comfortable around him. I don't wish to "rub elbows " with him, or be his best friend.
On Sep. 30,2006 i got my belly botton pierced and not to many hours after that i was raped.
Im sorry i can't seen to add alot more than that now but i believe that my biggest problem is that i can't seem to take my belly ring out. I feel like keeping it in reminds me that no matter the situation that i will never loose that much control again.
I know that the control is in gods hands, but i know that i NEVER want to go threw that again and to me its hard. Hard that i try to give him the control and i know i take it back every time but i thinks its because im afraid that i will run into that man again.
I seen the man a little while ago and i froze all i could think was he was going to do it to me again. I have forgaven him but i don't feel comfortable around him. I don't wish to "rub elbows " with him, or be his best friend.