I am I doing things for the wrong reasons...
Posted: Sat Dec 13, 2014 9:39 pm
In my day to day life I have found myself to be so giving, if someone is a little short on cash I'll pay for it. If the spirt tells me to pay, because I get that feeling in my stomach. At first I ignored it, but then I began to listen. MY question is, being able to help is something I naturally desire to do. I feel better when I do it and it's makes me happier,so lately I've been doing it more. Okay question is am I wrong by getting gratification and often when I try to put it in words it sounds selfish. Like a lady was in line at the store she sat some items off to the side said she would be back. I told the cashier to add to my things. The cashier was like that's sweet and I responded I hope someone would do the same for me, thinking that there has been many times my card wouldn't go through, or I was short, etc. But I need to know is my heart in the right place when I help and am able to have gratification? I feel as though I doing it out of my heart, but I understand feelings are not important. I believe I would still do the same things if it didn't make me feel good. Another point to add, when I helping I find myself speaking to myself, but often I can't believe that came from me or out my mouth.