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[Desperatelyhopeful]

Well, well, where do I start...

I stumbled upon Christianity Oasis because I was desperately searching for solutions and answers. I have gone for Christian counseling but my problems did not go away. I had prayed and fasted, sought deliverance and still I had no peace. My problem was lack of peace and turmoil in my mind about what people thought of me, my failures, I struggled with feelings of worthlessness. If I thought someone was thinking a particular way about me, I began to act guilty (even if I was not guilty) about it and it continued in new environments and as result people labeled me a particular way because I gave them every reason - I can't even explain what my problem was - it was just weird - very strange.

Today, after the 12th step in the programme not only do I have hope that Jesus will heal me completely but I can see signs of healing. Replacing the lies and negative emotions with the Word of God really works! Over the past few days, I have had a peace I have not experienced in a long time. I know that I am growing and healing - I am more loving, more measured in my responses and the best part is I HAVE TONS OF HOPE that I am already set free and as I continually use the prescriptions/ the medication (the word, prayer, the Miracle Grow Programme as a part of my life etc) I will see the complete manifestation of my healing.

I actually said to God a few days ago while praying, "thank you Lord that you will heal me completely and there will be no trace, remains, remnant or residue of the problem. " I could not fathom in the past that I would ever think this way.

The 12th step was absolutely phenomenal! It literally set my mind free. "Don't you let the enemy make you believe that Jesus can't change your life. It seems impossible? Remember this about miracles, if you are asking for something that seems impossible...it not enough" Wooooooooooooooooooooow!!!!

One thing that I used to worry about was that I would not be able to get married because I would not want to bring shame on my husband for being the was I was - and to be honest, this thought came back about two days ago and then I remembered...".oh but remember there will be no trace of it soon! It will be no more, so I that will not be an issue!"

Another result I observe is that I do not feel bad to the point where my heart churns - NO MORE! Thank you Jesus.

I have also gained a new understanding of the Holy Spirit even in the early stages of this bible study. It is a joy to know that I communing with the Holy Spirit and being led and guided in my walk. This is so comforting.

I have not followed the programme perfectly, for example some of the miracle grow project activities. But I plan to do so fully as part of my lifestyle.
I look forward to sharing more of my journey here.

God bless everyone who is on this programme or anyone who reads this post.

Shalom!

[dema]

God bless you.

Satan does throw lies at your head. Anybody who felt safe enough to talk about it with me has admitted that kind of thing. I get memories of stupid things I've done. God told me, "The stupid things are small and old. Think on the service you have done." We battle the darts of the wicked one with the shield of believing. And we do that with prayer and praise and with positive thoughts.

[Deborah]

Congratulations on being so near the end of the fourteen days. I also had problems keeping up with the Miracle Grow after a few days, so, when I finished the program the first time, I went back and repeated all fourteen days, one day at a time. I found that very useful because I missed some interesting points the first time through.

Also, the second time through, I was able to set up a more realistic Miracle Grow Chart, and keep it up, not perfectly, but then I am not perfect. I do keep trying. Like you, I found step 12 awesome. It helped me refocus on what I am doing rather than on what I am not doing perfectly or on what I am not doing at all.

Peace be with you.

Debbie