Christianity Oasis Forum

by **geselle** » Wed Mar 16, 2011 6:14 pm

i am home alone, well not alone.
a man is here working on some things for my mom, i am writing because my mind is kinda thinking weird thingsor i feel a bit uncomfortable...
i don't know this person, but he goes to my church, other people at church thinks he is weird. I want to go lay down because my heard is hurting really bad. i am afraid to with this person in the house, i am not sure if i can trust him but i try to stay way from him.. i keep thinking, what if i go to sleep and he try to do something to me... it scares me that i have those thoughts... it like i close my eyes and then he pass by and i jump for no reason why am i so jumpy?? i know he won't do me anything but i guess it's the fact that i am alone in this huge house with him and if anything happens no one can here me.... so i feel uncomfortable in my house... i am not sure what to think of that
I wish that i could just stop being so paranoid. I also don't want to let my gard down. why am i so afraid to be lefted alone with someone from the opposit sex but then again this is not just someone this is someone i dont know thats in my house... he called me by name i was shocked, how did he know my name? oh yeah thats because everyone in my church knows who i am but i dont know everyone, because there are about 600 people maybe more there.. NOw i am not sure what to do.. If i fo to my room i can not lock the door because the lock doesn't work because i am not allowed to lock my door.. may be i will just stay up until he leaves.... even staying up and him being around feels weird, he gave me that look when he ask for a drink of water... but whatever i will just stay away.
i just have to tell myself that nothing will happen and go lay down a little to see if i can get ride of the pain in my head

i hope he leaves soon it geeting dark and late.. and my family won't be home until after ten tonight

Thanks for listen

by **momof3** » Thu Mar 17, 2011 1:25 am

praying for you. can you put on some Christian music to occupy your mind and pass the time?

In Jesus,
love momo *JesusSign*

by **Christnundrconstruxn** » Thu Mar 17, 2011 8:26 am

Hi geselle,
I'm sorry you had to feel this way in your own home, I hope all turned out well
next time you feel like this do as momof3 said go to your room (you know a chair or board is as good as a lock) ONLY in this case though don't get yourself in trouble, anyways in your room turn on some Christian music but go one step further and go to God and ask for His protection and tell Him your scared and ask if He would ease your mind as well as protect you from any evil ways or thoughts.
As for you not letting your guard down...DON'T EVER...always be alert NOT scared just alert to things and try to put yourself in "safezones" like you were saying about being in your room and he in another that's a "safezone" and always be aware of yourself by that I mean what you talk about- how you are dressed-and what you are doing when someone like that is around this will also put you into a "safezone".
I have 2 daughters one just alittle younger than you and I wouldn't want them home alone with ANY male subject unless they felt 100% comfortable
years ago I worked in the service field which means I went into peoples homes, I had calls where I entered the house to find no one but a teenage girl, others like one a woman dressed very scantly and she was the only one home and many others, my point is I have seen times that I thought THERE'S NO WAY I would allow this if that were my wife or daughter!!!
So please know you had EVERY right to feel that way but next time go to God and your "safezone"
may God bless you and keep you from ever feeling like this again *Pray*