Christianity Oasis Forum

[Dora]

Put your determination working for good instead of evil and you will go far. GB

[deetu]

Humm... interesting that what we were talking about this morning is the same thing that kimbers said. God sends people our way to help us see different.... it's our choice to listen and change...

[mlg]

angelbaby...the Truth you have found...the answers we often seek may not be answered until we get to Heaven...so finding peace comes from knowing that God holds the answers and He will give those to you in His timing...not yours...no matter how much you wrestle with Him.

luv ya

[angelbaby]

the Truth you have found...the answers we often seek may not be answered until we get to Heaven

I like this quote thought I am not fully sure what it means. It sounds almost oxymoron to me. Truth different than answers. I thought answers equated to truth. Hmm...this is interesting to me.

[mlg]

TRUTH comes in many forms....whether it be an answer or a question...God uses it all

luv ya

[kimberly]

Angel you just took a HUGE growth step in admitting you might be wrong. Seeing it from God's perspective rather than ours isn't easy, but putting Him first always means we win.

May God bless you richly with spiritual understanding and hope.

[angelbaby]

Well, I haven't posted in my journal for a little over a week. I have been caught up with life. I should better say that I have withdrawn from life. I have felt especially this week that life is just too overwhelming that I can't handle this. Depression hit me to a point that I haven't seen since high school. My mom is having her biopsy on Friday. The doctors found a mass inside her. I have heard a lot of people tell me it could be beign. I agree that it could be; however, that does not mean all fear just automatically disapppears. Right now, I am just trying to find a way to cope with one second at a time.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Angelbaby

I'm sending up prayers for you and for your mom. God's blessed will be done.

Angelbaby, The Lord loves you very much. Rest in Him.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

[Tam]

Ok Angel just gonna be real honest with you here sis. The last thing that you need to do is to withdraw from people. You see I am speaking from experience here. My mom just went through the big C. It all happened so fast that we didn't have time to even think about it. My friends here are what got me through it. They are the ones that God gave me to help keep me going.
It is time to NOT think about you withdrawing and escaping but time for you to step it up a notch and allow God to heal this spot that is hurting to. Your mom is going to need you to be strong and to be a light for her, cancer or not as this is a hard trial on the breain. More than that sis, you are going to need to lean on God more than ever because yes it is a toll on your mind to.
So I say this in love sis......get off pot of feeling sorry for everything that you have been through and let go of it and allow GOD to heal it. He is right there and waiting...but you really GOT to want it. You have got to want to be healed more than your next breath or it just aint happening. Everyone is fighting a loosing battle if you don't want it this much. No one can make you reach but you. The temper tantrums are getting you no where and are actually holding you back.
Having said all that....I will say that you were doing so good at pressing in and reaching for wholeness. You were strating to trust and to let go some. Lets get back there so that you can be the woman of GOD that He wants you to be.
Love you sis and prayers remain with you.

[anne marie]

Angelbaby,
God be with you at this difficult time.
He will help you through this.
You know you only need ask.
I will remember you and your mom in my prayers tonight.
Wishing you well
anne marie
Peace

[mlg]

angelbaby, coping with one second at a time huh? Well how about letting God do the coping for you? Talk to Him...tell Him your worries and fears....tell Him what is going on....and then accept His comforting arms around you. He has a plan for your mom...and everything that happens...is for His glory...just trust that He is in control.

Praying for you and your mom.

luv ya sis

[angelbaby]

I am just typing cause I want this out of me. I have held in for more two weeks. It is eating me away slowly. Every time I think about my Daddy (step-grandfather), I think about how hard that I fought to keep him alive. I am angry that he is dead. I am angry at him. I know it was terminal Alzheimer's is. I knew he would die. When it really hit me that he was hyping. I started to taper my visits. I really believe he would be dead soon. I am suprised he live two years longer. The last time I saw him, he was skin and bones, had a pacemaker, on constant oxygen, had a feeding tube, and cathedor. He laid there in a fetal position. he didn't acknowledge anything. He just laid there. I couldn't handle it. I literally was thinking I can't handle this. I just wanted to escape so bad. Everything in me was screaming I couldn't do this/handle this. I couldn't continue to watch him die. He went from the active person to basically an infant. I didn't know what do. i felt helpless.