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[DominicanQueen]

I am confused, angry, sad, disappointed and scared... Here i am a single mother of 2 trying to settle down and live a happy life. The man i have been with for the past 6 months is leaving me to go back to his ex who he has a child with. He claims he loves me but he needs to be there for his child who is in another country thousands of miles away. What do I do? It's new years, we are supposed to be planning our future, moving in together, planning for my kids and his child. I am torn.. I thought I would never love again after my last relationship failed.. I cried and struggle and I over came all of those fears when i met him only to go through the same thing again. Is it me? am I cursed? What have I done to be in this position again? I wish God would just allow my heart to be cold towards men. I don't want another relationship, i don't want to ever fall in love again. I will just focus on my children, my education and myself. This is so tough for me, Why are men so indecisive, why play games with the ones that love them.. He says he loves me and if it was not for his daughter he would be with me but this has been going on for 6 months. Why? why put me through this when he knows my past and what i have been through. Lord help me!! Comfort my heart because only you have the power to do it. I am weak, lonely and wounded, please dear lord rescue me.