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[sunshinegirl68]

I can't say thank you for all the encouraging words that I am receiving on my journal entries. They are helping me in this healing process. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, which is wonderful. I don't feel as lost as I was two weeks ago. I am slowly finding my way and myself to the path that the Lord has set for me. So thank you again to all that have posted on my journal and to everyone that is on this site.

[sunshinegirl68]

Stepping Stone #5

I understand the blame game, I tend to take the blame as my own even if it is not my fault. I am such a giving person with a big heart I will help whoever I can. But it tends to backfire on me. I guess the reason I put the blame on myself is because I grew up knowing that everything was my fault with my mom and I automatically put it on myself no matter what the situation is. I am starting to understand that when things go wrong it is not always my fault. I don't really seek revenge on others it is just not a part of who I am. Now when it comes to fear, mistrust, and anger I am right there. I am afraid of getting hurt again. I don't trust easily, that is one of the places that I am going to have the hardest times dealing with. It is so hard to let the walls down to let someone in for fear of getting hurt again. There is much that I have to be angry at but the last time I got reallly angry is cost me time away for God and the path that he wants me to be on. I can't let anger control me anymore. My problem is that I choose to turn my problems over to Gos and eave them with him ad I am selfish to think that I can solve my own problems and I don't need help but the fact is that I do need help. I have to let go of my problems and let God take it away. Because if I don't I am not going to heal and get all these weeds out of my garden to place the stepping stones where they need to be.

[mlg]

Sunshine...blame is something the enemy uses to keep us from ever getting away from the past. But...that being said...there is freedom in Jesus...letting it all go...and the enemy looses his grip...you keep working on making sure the enemy doesn't keep you in the past...Jesus is in the present...the here and now...and He wants you here beside Him always.