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Journal: I am again trying to come back to the Lord, I never left him, never stopped believing, never stopped thanking him but I did "sit down", tried to do things "on my own" and it never works. This time I want a good foundation. There always seems to be a block at a certain point in this walk. I have been so close and in the spirit but the battles seem to have already begun. It is like I am being ripped apart - when I was young, my parents divorced and it felt like my mom was on one arm and my dad was on the other - each one pulling a different direction and it feels that way now and I know it will only get worse from here - the further I go. I am scared that I will fall again and won't get back up, I will never be the christian woman that I want to be or that God needs me to be. I do love the Lord with all my heart, and so want to be that woman he needs me to be. I chose the name Remnant because I feel like that is all that is left of me.

Hello Remnant and welcome to the Oasis, you are NOT alone in this.
I wanted to say you may not realize just how many here you just described....how do I know??
Because I'm one, from the struggle to the mom and dad (mine divorced at 11) and now I am divorcing at my kid's 15
I was raised in a Christian home but fell to the streets and now struggle daily to become as He created me to be
but just as you describe there are times I wonder why try I will never be what I was meant to be.....I got a news flash for both of us.....He's got us under control and is healing us in HIS time not ours, just keep getting back up and asking for His forgiveness and mercy and for Him to lead you where He wants you.

Don't allow satan to put those thoughts of failure in your mind, God loves you AS you are and yes if you are like me you stumble daily but it does not mean you are worthless, He loves you!! He knew every stumble you already had and every one you will have....that is not what concerns Him it is how you use it or react to it that matters.

God bless and hang on tight to Him, we are glad you came here and look forward to seeing and hearing more from you

Cuc

Thank you. I needed that.
Remnant

Hello Remnant

God bless you this day, and welcome to Christianity Oasis.

So, you are doing the Spirit of Truth Study? Yeah!!! I love that study.

Remnant be hopeful, and please know that I'm hopeful for you, too. I know what God can do and will do, especially when we seek Him with our whole heart. He led you here, so let the journey begin and embrace Him, the study and His blessed and sacred Word.

Prayers are rising to our Lord in the name of Jesus, on your behalf. May God's blessed will be done.

God bless and keep you, Remnant.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack