Christianity Oasis Forum

[MadameSarge]

I have had depression for 11 years from 1993-2001 and off and on since then. Right now I am struggling not to keep faith as my husband and I are on poverty income, not working right now. Also we were asked to adopt a child and I really want to but it has been heartbreaking that we might not be able to adopt him because of our income etc. It is hard to keep the housework up. I am diabetic so it is hard on me when I over exert myself which I did yesterday. It takes a day to recuperate. I have a hard time getting and keeping a job and I don't know why. Maybe it is my insecurities showing or something like that. Also I have been hurt a lot in the past and my husband and I seem not to fit into any church we go to. We do feel at home in the new church we are going to. My husband and I have been on the streets and have been living here and there until we found the apartment we found now. We were messed over by a church member who became our roommate and she forced us out of the lease and apartment. We don't like roommates as we also had roommates steal from us and other things. It has been hard to get over all the hurt and heartbreak. I still get down in the dumps as we don't have money to get food, to adopt, and to have a Christmas. It is hard right now for my husband and I. Also I feel for my husband as he doesn't have friends and every time we get known they don't like him nor me sometimes and don't want anything to do with us. Even Christians do this. Also they see our need and don't want to help us because they think our need is too great. It is so hard right now. It is hard to keep face above water when you are in a rut that seems you can't get out of. It is hard to believe Christ sometimes but do try to keep the faith.