Christianity Oasis Forum

[momof3]

BoL,

God bless you, brother. Your posts this morning blessed me. The one thing that comes to mind is this, though.

The mind always seems to be in conflict with the body. Could it be that God has designed us as a combination of good AND evil beings? To see which side of us prevails? If the flesh is of sin and the mind is the soul that belongs to God... that can only mean that we are always at war with ourselves. The spiritual warfare is always within us? we must endure throughout our mortal lives in order to prove to God we are worthy of His Heaven? His Grace?

Im led to ask you to read Ephesians Ch. 6 and 2 Corinthians Ch. 10. The Lord asks us to walk worthy of our (called) vocations, but His mercy, my dear brother, none of us deserve...nor can we ever be worthy of it. It is His free gift to us, because we can never earn it. The spiritual warfare is with us until the perfect day of the Lord, when our adversary is no longer able to accuse and whisper to us. This is one of the areas the Lord works with me continually in. We are born selfish and believe we "deserve" whatever it is we think we deserve. If we really got what we deserve, we'd be toast. ( I say that in the most sincere, thankful to the Lord for my salvation way )

Also, it amazes me that the Lord uses us at all. He uses us as broken as we are. He uses us as human and fallable as we are. His stength is made perfect in our weaknesses. It is truly His grace that is sufficient in us that works to do whatever it is He is doing through us, His vessels..and His representatives. Willing, but not deserving. He uses the lowly things in this world. That means, us. It leaves no room for boasting of ourselves, but causes us to praise Him and give Him glory in ALL things.

You asked me to tell you what keeps me going...I would have to say above anything else, its Hope. This life has been very hard..and not long ago my family was faced with a very devastating event. My sons all believe in Jesus. Years ago, my niece was born very prematurely. She was not expected to live. God, however, had other plans and used her birth to minister and speak truth to many many people who would otherwise have had late-term abortions.

My middle son and his wife lost their first baby. Then, during the pregnancy with their second child, Zachary, they were told that he would have to have surgery if they didnt abort him. The Drs in this country (my son is military and stationed overseas) advised them to abort the child. My son, remembering his cousin stepped out in faith...as did I, choosing to trust the Lord with what He gives them, and counting on the strength and wisdom to deal with whatever problems Zachary would have. Their son was born, and had the minor surgery. Everything looked fine until one of the nurses accidentally gave him an adult dose of blood thinners...that killed him. Our faith was shaken to the core. I wish I could say that we handled it like good and faithful servants, with total faith in what the Lord had allowed to happen. That was no-where near the way we handled it. A year later, the Lord allowed me to go to Korea for the birth of their daughter. During this time, (I call it a God conspiracy ) I had nothing to do...nothing but time to think, time to read, time to finally allow the Lord to speak to me through my pain...and, thus, allowing me to speak truth into my son's and his wife's lives...who's hearts had been shattered. It was a faith crises, I thought...but, as always, when I reached a point where I wasnt blinded by the pain, the Lord showed me that although there will always be trials and tribulations..and pain, and evils in this world, the Hope that one glorious day, it will all be worth it. It will all be so meaningless when we are in Glory..in the presence of our God and Savior, Jesus. When all the cares of this world will cease....and, I cant stand the thought of one single soul being cast away from His presence. I cant put into words what the Lord did during that time. It was a long, long road....and He is still working on it. But, the hope that just one heart can be changed, one life can be healed, one soul would hear, that Hope is what keeps me going. The relationship that came out of that trial is deeper, the faith is more sure...does this make sense to you? I wish I could put into words the depths to which the Lord reached within our hearts....and continues to reach.

Sorry this was so long. It would be longer if I could find the words to express to you His love and peace that live within me now. And, I watch daily and see how much closer He draws my son, His son, to Him through this. The hard part is over. There's only healing now...and a deeper, closer, more personal relationship in my son's future with his Lord, Jesus.

So, that is what keeps me going....knowing He isnt finished yet. There are so many souls who are screaming out to know that salvation..and peace, and Hope.

God bless you, my brother in Jesus. He is nowhere near finished with you. Till He calls you home, His plan for your life here is in progress. Trust this. Keep searching....Ask, Seek, and Knock. He is faithful, no matter what the curcumstances appear to be.

In Jesus,
love momo

[Bearer Of Light]

dearest Sister in Jesus,

Thank you for sharing such a touching part of your life with me. It made the tears flow and I realised just how vulnerable we all are in this world. it is amazing to me that you persevere after such a truly tragic set of events. Bless you for your courage and strength to share this and for maintaining your faith and hope. I have much to learn from your excellent example.

I have read those chapters that you recommended and they did provide insight. There is simply so much to learn from the bible... and to remember it, another task in itself!

Something strange happened today, in a good way i hope:
I saw a very strange cloud formation in the sky which looked to me like ancient Hebrew or Arabic letters, not that I know the language but my instincts told me it was a mssg for me from God because I've been asking Him so much lately to show me my path. I have yet to find the corresponding letters to translate into English, but i am excited about seeing whether or not there actually IS a message in there.

Going to read stepping stone 9 soon... and then post my log for it. its great to read your mssg again and share with you in His name. I hope that soon I will be aware of what I am to do for Him. It's been so many years I feel lost... knowing my direction for once would be a fantastic feeling.

May God's love shine on you always momo,

Love in Jesus,
BoL

[momof3]

Hi, BoL,

I was re-reading your posts this morning as you were typing your reply to me You are so welcome. I dont believe God brings us through events as such without giving us testimony to Him within these events. You are so correct, we are vulnerable. The awesome part about that is, through being vulnerable and able to actually feel, our hearts are opened up with sensetivity to others and what they are going through.

Looking forward to your next post. God is so good. Im praying for you. There is such a longing within you, to know His plan for your life. I believe you are right where He wants you to be...at this time, in this place. His timing is always perfect and on-time.

Talk to ya soon, dear brother in Jesus.

In Jesus,
love momo

[momof3]

p.s.

those seeds we were talking about? They are being planted. When we read His word, the Holy Spirit is planting seeds within our souls. Ask the Holy Spirit to give you understanding. He does the increase, too. The more we read, the more understanding we get. His word is alive. How do we know the heart of God...we read what He has given to us that shows His heart and His will.

The Holy Spirit is alive and well within you. He is showing you..and growing you.

[Bearer Of Light]

This stone was really insightful. I have been trying to change my lifestyle and habits for many years. One day i recall that i just felt compelled to change things because my current lifestyle and habits at that time were only getting me into trouble and producing nothing for me. I definitely agree with the phrase ''You become what you surround yourself with''.

Alot of the time I am surrounded by little to nothing. And so, hence I have and am little to nothing.
I think this stone has really opened up new meanings for me about why and how to change things in my life. And to build new habits and toss away the old ones. God is sooooooo wonderful! He knows all these things! And I am finally starting to learn some of them

Amen and praise be given to the Lord!

PS- will write to momo later this evening

[momof3]

Keep going, bro. It gets better. Dont forget, when you are finished with the CCCC steps, the Many Called, Few Chosen study is here...and another awesome one is Spirit of Truth...so many, many tools the Lord has given us. Thank You, Holy Spirit.

God bless you, brother in Him

In Jesus,
love momo

[Bearer Of Light]

Hi momo,

sorry I didnt write yesterday, forgot my mom was visiting in the early morning! Had to pick her up at 7am! went to sleep and just crashed right out. Thanks again for the words of wisdom, the prayers, the encouragement and guidance. You are a star

I look forward to continuing learning about the Lord and what He wants us to do in His name... last night i read through stepping stone 10 and how to pray to God. I have to admit it: I've been doing it completely wrong! LOL

And I have not always been doing it for His glorification, but sometimes for mine so strange how you think you are on the right track and you are actually quite far from it. I've so much to learn... but already I am starting to notice things I haven't before. So that must be God working through me showing me things in His truth?

Unfortunately it just shows me more of how the world has gotten ugly and unholy. It's a real shame. wish others would be compelled of their own will to turn to God in search of truth... they sure need it!

I think that this message to you will also be my journal to stepping stone 10. I just was so inspired by how to properly pray to God. In Jesus' name with faith and belief. If it is God's will and it shall be done! Marvelous! That just makes me feel like if I pray properly and I receive, then it is God's plan for me... if i don't receive then maybe it's not the time or it isn't within God's plan for me. So either way, I have faith because I know that it is the RIGHT outcome for my path! God truly is marvelous and great!

I praise the Lord and give thanks for His word which is turning out to really be a great step forward for my life. I plan to continue and grow closer to God and keep growing my faith. Amen.

God Bless you momo for all your kindness and insight.

BoL

[momof3]

Hi BoL,

God bless you, brother.

BearerofLight, can you feel it? There is a love within you...that is different from the love of this world. I hear it in your words. Its a kindness, and a mindfulness...that is a gift from the Lord. I believe this is just one of the gifts the Lord has given you as a huge part of His will for your life and path. Pray about this.

When praying, bro...the Lord asks us to bring our petitions to Him in prayer and supplication. I used to struggle with this part cuz I knew He knows my every need....and, that led to not praying for others, cuz He already knew their needs as well. See where thats going? Pretty soon, there's nothing to pray about if God already knows....that is no relationship. The biggest part of a relationship is to relate. He wants us to relate to Him. Speak with Him like we would with our best friend...open in heart, bare and naked in truth, because this is the relationship He wants to have with us. We have not because we ask not...and....His answers, Ive found, are yes, no and not know. I love to think about how Jesus prayed...He asked for what He wanted, and then, said, not My will, but Yours be done...and yes, He knew God would answer according to His own wisdom-filled will.

Im so blessed to be able to walk with you through this. I cant wait to see what the Lord is doing within you.

God bless you, again, my brother in Jesus.

In Him,
love momo

[Bearer Of Light]

I've read this stone about the Holy spirit and talking with Him. Being open to Him and allowing Him into my mind and heart.
It seems already familiar to me, not a new thing to do. I have been talking with Him my entire life it seems. There have been so many times in my past where I can say I just ''know'' I was talking to Him. Which brings me to share an interesting occurrence last night:

First, a little history into the issue, then the occurrence last night...
For the past few weeks I have suddenly had this deep heartfelt desire and almost soulful need to return to Australia. I lived there for a few years back in the 1990s and loved it more than any place on Earth. Sadly, I lost my way out there, felt too alone and returned to the USA at that stage and it was a mistake in my mind, but i guess that the Lord wanted me to leave for His purposes.

Now, 11 years later... I have a new strong urge to go back! But why now? My fiancee' does not want to go there... and neither do her two boys.. My 2 year old says yes to go , but hey he is two and will say yes to almost anything

So, why do I feel this now? So, back to the occurrence: Last night before bed, I was reading this stone about speaking with the Holy Spirit - and of course I am here with you all from God leading me here, to figure out what to do with my life and find a path... so far all seems to link up together in order... so, I was dreaming some random dream... nothing particular... but then I actually HEARD a soft whisper of a voice telling me ''Australia''. The word was said only once. And when I heard it I was in a state of mind someplace between being awake and almost asleep. I recall after hearing that word being spoken, I looked around my room as it I heard it almost as I was awake.

I've not heard anything like this before, but perhaps after reading stone 11, on how to communicate with the Holy Spirit, perhaps He decided that immediately after my reading was the best time to speak to me?

I have so many theories, but I wish to make no assumptions about it. I know I heard the word ''Australia'' and it was clearly spoken and in a soft long whisper. I still have to wonder if that was a message to me and a clue as to my direction in life, or was it my own imagination using my deep desire and hope to give realism to what I clearly heard?

I want to have faith that it was Him... and I would love to follow that path if it is what He wants for me to do.

Amen.

[Bearer Of Light]

Thank you my Sister in Jesus for yet another lovely message and inspired words from God.
I give thanks that He has led you here to speak with me and that we are learning from each other and from Him.
I definitely feel different by now having read 11 stones. I have insights that are so profound that they would have made no sense to me a couple of years ago. I'm keeping some things in my mind that I have learned and use them as a daily effort.

The main thing being I try and ask myself as much as I can - What would Jesus do? Would Jesus do this or that? Would God be pleased or happy with me if I did / said .... ? It's not easy as old habits die hard they say... but, I'm starting to really understand more and more about what God wants and how I can live a happier life in His name. It will surely take some time to become good at doing these things, things to be closer to Him, but I have to say that reading the Word of God makes me feel energised and more aware of things.

I pray that I will not stop and that I will reach better and higher places with Him and with you as well... and also anyone else in fellowship.

Blessings of light and love to you Sister,

Amen!
BoL

[Dora]

You feel led by the Holy Spirit to go for Him where He will give you a purpose, meaning, a ministry. But there's this woman you love.....

Tuff choice.

[momof3]

Hi again, BoL

I absolutely believe you heard what you heard..He does the same thing with me. He speaks to me alot of times when Im the quietest...either falling asleep, when nothing is pressing in my mind and I can hear Him, or in my dreams. Pray about this, too. He will work out the details if this is His calling you back to Australia. It is a tough choice, when the Holy Spirit is nudging you to do something and those you love around you arent on the same page as you. I wonder if this is what the Lord means about being equally yoked. Id like to hear what others would share about that.

I do know this, Paul talked about not marrying because it would take away from our dedication to the Lord. On the other hand, God, Himself said "Its not good for man to be alone" and created Adam's helpmeet. Pray about your fiance, brother, and the kids, as well. He will make it plain to you. I and many others will be praying for you, as well. I know He is in the process of showing you His will for your life.

God bless you, my brother in Jesus. He never ceases to amaze me. He is showing you so much...and He isnt finished by a long-shot.

In Jesus,
love momo